Page 223 of Knot So Lucky
The car goes airborne.
Time slows in that particular way that happens during crisis. My brain processing everything in hyper-detail even as my body becomes useless.
I don't brace myself. Bracing causes more injuries during impacts—tense muscles tear and bones break where relaxed bodies can absorb force.
Instead, I think of Aurora.
The antidote under my tongue tastes like chemical death, but it's working—I can feel my heart rate staying steady when it should be spiking, my breathing remaining controlled when panic should be setting in.
A wave of artificial calm runs through me like goosebumps, the drug making me move differently.Slowly.Like I'm underwater.
In this slowed moment, I envision the date I promised her.
Aurora wearing a nice dress—maybe that emerald one that makes her eyes look like storms, or something new that makes her feel beautiful and confident. Her wearing the bond mark I requested, visible on her neck for everyone to see.
We'd watch movies on my couch. I'd cook her favorite foods, explain techniques while she watches with that particular focus she gets when learning something new. We'd laugh and touch and exist together without the pressure of racing or threats or pack politics.
Her face would light up the way it does when she's genuinely happy. That smile that transforms her entire expression, makes her look younger and less burdened by all the weight she carries.
I can only hope—if I make it out of this—that I can still light her face up like that. Cook her meals that make her moan with appreciation. Make her excited about simple domestic moments that most people take for granted.
Luca thought keeping his distance would protect Aurora. That staying emotionally unavailable would somehow prevent history from repeating.
But he didn't realize this all started withme.
My past, my failure, my vulnerability.
Which is exactly why I'm ending it now.
Exposing the culprit's method, drawing them out, ensuring the grand finale race happens without this shadow hanging over the pack.
Reality clicks back into place with brutal force.
The car impacts the barrier at an angle, spinning violently. Metal screams against concrete in a sound that makes my teeth ache. The world becomes a disorienting blur of motion and noise and forces that exceed what the human body is designed to withstand.
Another impact.
The car flips, rolls, momentum carrying it through destruction with methodical thoroughness.
Glass shatters. Carbon fiber cracks. The safety cage around the cockpit holds—thank god for modern engineering—but the forces are still crushing.
I taste blood.
Not from injury, but from biting my tongue during impacts. Or maybe from internal damage I can't yet feel through the cocktail of adrenaline and antidote flooding my system.
The car finally stops—upside down based on the pressure of the harness against my shoulders and the way blood is rushing to my head.
I try to move, but my body isn't responding properly. The antidote is keeping me alive but also making everything feel distant, disconnected, like I'm piloting my body remotely through a bad connection.
Smoke. I smell smoke through the helmet, acrid and chemical.
Then someone is screaming.
"FIRE! FIRE!"
The words cut through my fading consciousness with terrifying clarity.
Fire means fuel leak. Fuel leak in a crashed race car means explosion. Explosion means death, even for someone who survived the initial impact.
