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“Yeah?” Slate smiled.
“Yeah.” I kissed him softly. “You’re my boyfriend, babe.”
“And you’re mine.”
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Slate
Since my two Sensation passes were over, I became a Pearl member.
Even though Vaughn and I had a relationship outside of Sensation, I decided to join because he was a member. It was how I met Vaughn and how I lost my V card, as well as gained my first boyfriend; otherwise, I wasn’t certain I would have joined. My baseball schedule was intense for seven to eight months out of the year depending on if we made playoffs. The stars had aligned that I was able to go to a party twice in a row, but I wasn’t able to go the last two months, so instead, Vaughn came to Arizona and stayed with me. That made me feel good, and tonight, I was in LA and able to meet him there.
I arrived at Sensation after my game. The season was almost over, and we were about to start the playoffs. How far we went would determine if I could go to the next party or even the one after that. It also would impact how much I saw Vaughn because playoffs were intense. We would have to deal with it when the time came.
I pulled the car I’d rented for the night up to the stairs of the mansion. After I got out, I checked in with the door guy and then went inside and checked my phone. Vaughn was already inside per his text. I wanted nothing more than to walk in the doors with him, but that would have to be after the season ended.
Walking through the party, I searched for Vaughn. I saw Leigh, and she came up to me and gave me a hug.
“Looking for your man?” she asked.
“Yeah, have you seen him?”
“I think he’s in the study.”
“Thanks.” I kissed her cheek and went to the room that I assumed was the study.
When I got there, I stopped in my tracks. A woman was sitting on Vaughn’s lap. She was fully clothed, but he’d once told me that hedabbledin both men and woman. The high I was on instantly deflated.
Was I ever going to be enough for him? We were having a great time together, but would he want to scratch that itch and be with a woman to satisfy some need? I wasn’t okay with it. I wanted to be with someone who only wanted me. What if we broke up? I knew he was my first and only, but I thought I was enough for him. I was in a lust-filled bubble.
As though he could sense me, our gazes locked, and he smiled. He fucking smiled, but I didn’t. I couldn’t. I couldn’t stand there and watch him touch someone else even if they were both fully clothed. I couldn’t stand there and hear him tell me it was nothing because I knew he’d been with women before. I couldn’t stand there in a room full of people touching, groping, fucking.
I couldn’t stand there at all.
So I turned and started for the front door. I faintly heard my name, but I didn’t stop. I felt as though I couldn’t breathe and I needed to get out of there fast—like the house was on fire and I was going to burn alive. It wasn’t even because I thought Vaughn was cheating on me. It was because I felt unworthy. I would never be enough for him. I couldn’t allow him to fulfill everything that he desired because I wasn’t okay with him sleeping around. That was what Sensation was, wasn’t it? Why did I think that we could have a relationship and just use his room to fuck in? I didn’t want to experience other people with him.
I just wanted him.
Pushing the curtains aside, I went to the coat check to get my phone and then get out of there.
“Slate!” I turned to see Vaughn coming through the drapes. “What the fuck?”
“I’m sorry. I just have to go.” I grabbed my phone and started for the main doors.
“Why?”
“I don’t really want to have this discussion here.”
“Why does there need to be a discussion?” He followed me out the doors. “I don’t even know what happened.”
I took a deep breath. “A woman was sitting on your lap, Vaughn.”
“Yeah? So?”
“What do you mean ‘so’?”
“It’s not like I was fucking her, babe.”
