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Like I always did during my heat cycles.

Oh, Gods, Cillian isn’t going to help me. He never helps me. He’s never here…

Years of torture filled my mind, all those moments where I tried to satisfy myself with the toy, only to end up screaming in my nest. Alone. In agony. Without an Alpha to properly care for my needs.

I’d put Cillian on my list because he was the only Alpha I trusted, the one Alpha I desired.

But he never came.

He never comes.

He doesn’t want me.

He’s never wanted me.

I closed my eyes, lost to the torment of my past, swimming in a sea of solitude.

I need my toy. I need the fake knot. Something to relieve this pressure. Something to help me through this hell!

I squirmed, my nest no longer comforting. I needed… needed…Stars!

Did I scream that out loud?

Because my throat… it felt… raw.

Why is this happening? It’s too soon,a logical part of me recognized.

But another spasm yanked me under a wave of lava that left me gasping for air that no longer existed.

I’m drowning.

It’s just the heat,I told myself.It’s… it’s going to be okay.

But he isn’t coming.

He never comes.

Cillian… never… comes.

CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

CILLIAN

What the fuckis going on?!

One minute, Ivana was reveling in pleasure, and the next, she was screaming.

Crying.

And suddenly in the throes of an intense estrus.

Kieran,I said, tapping into my best friend’s mind. Before he could reply or chastise me for interrupting his sleep, I told him,Ivana just went into heat.

So did three other Omegas,he replied without missing a beat.I was just about to call for you.

Fuck. I held Ivana’s face between my hands as I tried to keep her beneath me. But she was squirming almost violently, her mind chaotic and desperate. She kept thinking about her toy, how she needed it to help.

BecauseIwouldn’t come to help her.

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