Page 27 of A Virgin for His Grace
"Heavens," he breathed, claiming her mouth in another searing kiss as his hands worked to divest them both of the remaining barriers between them. "I thought I might go mad with wanting you."
Her gown pooled around her feet, followed by her chemise and stockings, until she stood before him clad only in moonlight and desire. Devon's gaze moved over her naked form with reverent appreciation, his hands following the path of his eyes as he mapped every curve and hollow with worshipful attention.
"You are perfect," he murmured, his voice rough with emotion. "Absolutely perfect."
When he lifted her onto the edge of his desk, positioning himself between her thighs with deliberate intent, Arabella felt a moment of panic at the enormity of what they were about to do.
"Devon, I... I have never..."
"I know," he said gently, his hands framing her face with infinite tenderness despite the obvious strain of his arousal. "Trust me, love. Let me worship you as you deserve."
His mouth found hers again as he slowly, carefully joined their bodies, his lips muffling her cry of discomfort as he claimed her innocence with as much gentleness as his desperate need would allow. For a moment, they remained still, both overwhelmed by the intimacy of their joining and the knowledge that they had crossed a line from which there could be no retreat.
Then Devon began to move, slowly at first, allowing her body to adjust to his invasion before gradually increasing the rhythm and intensity of his thrusts. The initial discomfort faded, replaced by building pleasure that seemed to radiate outward from their point of connection until every nerve ending in her body sang with sensation.
"So tight," he groaned against her throat, his control slipping as she began to move with him, instinctively seeking the friction that would drive them both over the edge into oblivion. "So perfect, so mine."
The possessive declaration should have alarmed her, yet instead it only intensified the pleasure that was building to unbearable heights within her. She was his, had been his from the moment he first touched her in Lord Godric's folly, and the knowledge that he was claiming her completely sent her spiraling toward a climax that threatened to shatter her very soul.
"Devon," she cried, her body arching against his as the first waves of release began to crest. "Oh my!!! Devon, I..."
"You are mine," he commanded roughly, his own control hanging by the merest thread as he felt her body begin to convulse around him. "Let yourself free, Arabella. Show me how much you need this, how much you need me."
The words, combined with one final, devastating thrust, sent her tumbling over the precipice into a pleasure so intense it bordered on pain. She cried out his name as her body shattered into a thousand pieces, dimly aware of his own hoarse shout as he followed her into the abyss and he claimed her completely.
For long moments, they remained locked together, both struggling to catch their breath and process the magnitude of what had just transpired. When Devon finally lifted his head to look into her eyes, Arabella saw her own wonder and trepidation reflected in his dark gaze.
"Are you hurt?" he asked gently, his hands stroking through her disheveled hair with infinite tenderness.
"No," she whispered, though she felt fundamentally changed by their joining, as though some essential part of herself had been irrevocably altered. "No, I am... I am well."
Devon's smile was soft with satisfaction and something else that made her heart clench with emotion. "You are magnificent," he said quietly, pressing gentle kisses to her temple, her cheek, the corner of her mouth. "Absolutely magnificent."
As the immediate euphoria of their passion began to fade, replaced by the sobering reality of what they had done, Arabella felt tears prick her eyes. She had just given herself completely to a man who could offer her nothing but scandal and heartbreak, who viewed marriage as an institution to be avoided at all costs.
"Regrets already?" Devon asked softly, noting the moisture that gathered on her lashes.
"Should I not have them?" she replied with attempted lightness, though her voice caught on the words. "I have just thoroughly compromised myself with a man whose reputation for seduction is exceeded only by his determination to avoid the parson's trap."
Devon's expression grew serious, his hands tightening on her waist as though he feared she might try to escape. "This changes things between us, Arabella. Surely you must realise that."
"Does it?" she asked with bitter humor. "Or have I simply joined the ranks of your many conquests, to be discarded when you tire of the novelty?"
The words struck him like physical blows, and Devon pulled back slightly, his face a mask of hurt and anger. "Is that truly what you think? That this was merely another casual seduction?"
"Was it not?" Arabella challenged, though her heart clenched at the pain she glimpsed in his dark eyes. "You have made it abundantly clear that you have no intention of marrying, that you view such entanglements as threats to your precious freedom. What am I to think but that I have been thoroughly ruined for nothing more than your momentary pleasure?"
Devon's jaw tightened with barely suppressed emotion, and for a moment, she thought he might walk away without another word. Instead, he cupped her face in his hands, forcing her to meet his intense gaze.
"You are not a conquest, Arabella," he said with quiet intensity. "You are... you are everything I never knew I wanted, everything I thought I was too damaged to deserve. What happened between us tonight was not seduction, it was surrender. Complete and utter surrender to something I can no longer deny or resist."
The raw honesty in his voice made her breath catch in her throat, though she forced herself not to read too much into his words. "And yet you still cannot speak of marriage, of a future that extends beyond these stolen moments."
Devon's expression grew pained, and he looked away, unable to meet her searching gaze. "Marriage is... complicated for men in my position. There are expectations, obligations, the necessity of producing heirs. I would not wish to trap you in a union that might bring you more pain than joy."
The careful non-answer confirmed her worst fears, and Arabella felt something vital die within her chest. "I see. So I am good enough to bed but not to wed. How refreshingly honest of you, Your Grace."
"That is not what I meant."
