Page 100 of With This Kiss
“I could have hurt you…” A terrified expression took over. “I did hurt you. Fuck, how could I have not? I was rough.”
He made a move to climb off the bed. I reacted without thinking and wrapped my arms and legs around him from behind. “Hey, I’m okay.”
He didn’t say anything, his back tense against me. I moved my hand over to his chest and rubbed it until I felt him relax a little before reaching my hand up and cupping his cheek.
I pressed a kiss between his shoulders, a small part of me feeling happy over his reaction. Because if he was this upset over the possibility of hurting me and not knowing it…
I didn’t think I would ever have to be scared of him.
“You should have told me,” he said.
I nodded. I should have, but I wasn’t thinking. “I thought it would have been obvious.”
“How so?”
“I don’t really like to be touched.”
“I noticed that,” he commented.
I nodded. “Your touch is the only one I seem to be able to tolerate.”
“Just tolerate?”
I smiled. “Tolerate… crave… same thing.”
He shook his head. I could almost imagine him smiling. “Do you know why that is?”
I shook my head. “I don’t remember a time when it hasn’t been like that.”
Perhaps my mom might have something to do with it. I wasn’t sure. But I wasn’t going to get into that with him now. Besides, there was a more pressing matter.
“We didn’t use protection. And I’m not on birth control,” I said.
“Shit, I’m sorry, baby. I wasn’t thinking.”
“Yeah, me neither.”
“I promise I’m clean. My last physical was about a month before we met, and I haven’t touched anyone since. I’ll show you the report, okay?”
I nodded. I believed him, but I felt more at ease that he was so willing to give me the report.
“I don’t think we’re at risk of getting pregnant,” I said. At least, I wouldn’t be based on my cycle. “But we should probably use protection from now on.”
The last thing I needed was to bring a baby into this world now.
He didn’t say anything to that.
Instead, he turned me around and scooped me up in his arms.
I let out a small, surprised squeak when he stood.
“Where are we going?” I asked.
“To take a shower. I just need to take care of you now and hold you close, okay?” he said, his blue eyes light with some unnamed emotion I couldn’t figure out. Still, it made my heart race in the best way possible.
“Okay,” I answered.
I didn’t sayanything as I looked out the window.
