Page 51 of Sweet Little Lies
I wish I was strong enough to slay my own dragons and have the balls to deal with the past that haunts me. But instead, I lean on her comfort and touch to help me wage the war going on inside me. I’ll shield her from the awful truth of who I am and what I’ve done for as long as I can.
“Look at me,amado.” Her hands cup my cheeks and turns my face to look at her.
Just the sight of her takes my breath away. Makes me want to land on my knees in worship and reverence.
“I love you, Lance.”
I’m stunned. The words take me by surprise and knock the wind out of me.
No one has said those words to me in so, so long. Not since before my mother died. Not since I was a kid, when she’d give me Eskimo kisses when she’s tucked me into bed at night. When things were perfect in my world and love was enough to make the world good.
But I know better now. I’m older and wiser. Those words hold no meaning because they are easily snatched away.
The three words she drops at my feet burn both my head and my heart, but score deep inside my soul. Those words are freedom and chains. Medicinal yet a curse.
I can’t say them back to her, not because I don’t feel them, but because I’m not worthy to utter them to her. She needs someone so much stronger than me – both in mind and spirit. And I know I’m not who she’s meant to be with.
I’m meant to be a loner the rest of my life. No one wants me to bring them down. Especially not this angel in front of me.
Despite my tumultuous thoughts, I’m still weak enough to give in. I can’t let her go just yet. I need more of her. Without her I am nothing but a shell.
“Baby, you have no idea how much you mean to me. You’re a dream come true.”
I lean forward and capture her lips in a kiss. My tongue probes deeply as she opens for me, as I explore the hot crevices of her mouth. She tastes so sweet – of orange and spearmint from the fruity drink she had tonight.
Pulling her onto my lap, I sink down into the couch so she can straddle me. Her skirt hinders her ability to move without constriction, so I lift the material above her hips and squeeze her fleshy backside as she grinds down against my erection.
I use my thumb to gently circle the nipple that pokes out of her blouse and she arches her neck at the pleasure of it. The position has her hair hanging down her back, the ends swaying freely to create a sexy curtain of movement.I grab hold of the silky strands like a rope, tugging at it with enough force for her to squeak.
“Do you remember what I told you earlier? About how I would fuck you tonight?”
Her eyes open wider, but then narrow in seductive fiery passion. She nods.
“Tell me, Micaela. What did I promise you?”
My hand lands on top of the sweet flesh of her thigh, and I trace patterns around the goosebumps that pebble her skin.
“You…you said it would be hard and fast.”
Sliding underneath the denim fabric, my fingers find the prize possession hidden under the lace between her legs. I press at the seam and she jolts with a breathy gasp.
And then because I’m not teasing, I pull the edge of her panties over and shove two fingers into her wetness. She jerks at the intrusion and then grinds down on them so I’m buried deep.
We both moan together. She’s all slickness and heat and I’m nearly overcome with gratitude when she clenches around me.
“You like that, baby?” I ask rhetorically, knowing she does based on the way she’s rocking against my fingers, seeking friction. Finding her release.
I add another finger as she gyrates and moves, her sexy moans and gasps enough to make me lose my mind.
I’m so hungry for her. Starving for her touch. Needy of finding a release inside of her body.
Because I’m a bastard and don’t want her to come yet, I pull out my fingers and she groans with a feisty pout from the withdrawal.
“Wha-?” she begins to say, but I cut her off with a kiss, picking her up in my arms and walking toward her bedroom.
“It may be fast and hard, but I’m still going to fuck you properly.”
Depositing her on the bed, I whip my shirt over my head and struggle a little with my belt. She takes her calm and steady hand and undoes the buckle, unbuttons and unzips and then moves them down and out of the way.
