Page 36 of Character Flaws
I’m going to lose myself in the character of Silvia – with all her strength and brass - and find myself in the process.
Even if it means giving up on the fantasy that Theo will someday miraculously turn hetero and fall in love with me.
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I’m groggy and in a snippy mood when I walk into the stage room with a Dunkin Donuts coffee in hand and bag of donuts in the other.
Theo had texted me earlier this morning to ask if I wanted to take the L with him to class and I politely declined. I needed some breathing room to myself so I could think through this plan of mine.
And forget about that kiss.
The coffee is strong and hot –just like Theo– who is chatting amiably with another classmate as I walk into the room and take a seat. He glances my way and gives me the chin gesture in greeting. And flashes me one of his oh-so-gorgeous smiles.
His eyes take a stroll from my face down to the bag of donuts and he widens his eyes, quirking an eyebrow at me. I shrug impishly.
Yeah, so I may have bought him a donut, too. My plan isn’t foolproof. He’s still my friend and I like him a lot.
Theo ends his conversation and begins walking toward me, just as I take a huge bite of my double-chocolate coconut donut. I lick my lips in satisfaction and may moan a little bit. I notice Theo’s steps falter.
When he stops in front of me, he has a weird expression on his face.
“Good morning,” he greets as I swallow down the delicious bite.
Smiling, I mumble with my mouth full. “Mmm.”
I notice his hands twitch at his side. “Uh, you have...some,” he mutters, his thumb coming up to graze over my lower lip. My mouth parts slightly and my tongue darts out to lick away the chocolate.
And then I sit there in complete bewilderment as Theo’s thumb retreats up to his own mouth, flicking it clean with his tongue.
Oh geez. There go all plans to forget about that kiss.
My face feels like it’s on fire. I swallow harshly and practically choke. The coffee is not going to douse these flames wicking and building like an inferno in my chest, but I take a sip anyway for something to do. Anything to get my thoughts on something besides how hot that just was.
So hot I have to look down to make sure it didn’t burn a hole through my clothes. Am I even still wearing clothes? I have no idea because I feel naked under his intense gaze.
“I sure hope you’ve got something for me.”
Uh, I’ve got something for you…
Okay, let’s face it. My mind and thoughts are so far from donuts and breakfast right now, I could be on planet Venus. All I’m thinking about is being naked. With Theo.
He nods his head to the bag in my lap.
“A donut?”
“Of course.”
I fumble with the bag, finally just shoving it out to him, my hands trembling. He grasps the edge, but not before lightly brushing my knuckles with his fingers.
His reflexes are good because he snatches the bag as I’ve basically just dropped like it’s hot.
I’d like to drop him like he’s hot.
Theo chuckles, amused by my reaction. “Are you okay this morning? Because you seem a little…tense. Did you stay up too late practicing your lines? You shouldn’t worry because you’ll do great today. Our rehearsal last night was perfect.”
No, not perfect. Had it been perfect, you would’ve gotten naked with me. And I would’ve ridden you like a rodeo bull.
I’m sure Theo can read my thoughts right now as I think about him naked and all the orgasms he’d give me from his fingers, his tongue and his cock.
