Page 90 of Christmas Crisis
“I’m not sure what you want to happen tonight,” I said. “Just know that I’m not in any rush. We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do. Ever.”
“I know. And I’ll be honest that I’m a little scared. Even though it was a long time ago, I have memories of…disappointing my partners.” He exhaled slowly through his nose.
Placing my hand on his cheek, I reassured him. “It’s not like that with you and me, Leo. I promise. You could never disappoint me because you’re exactly right for me.”
“And only you,” he vowed, brushing his lips across mine. I held him there as we experienced our first real kiss. I kept my lips pliant, taking part but not leading, so he could show me what he wanted.
A flare of lust sparked when his tongue danced along the seam of my lips until finally, tentatively, he invaded my mouth. We kissed and kissed, tangling our tongues and laughing as we occasionally came up for air.
I was kissing Leo!
And it was as magical as I’d always known it would be.
After ten minutes, he pulled his head back. I could tell he wanted to say something but was having trouble getting it out.
“What is it?” I asked. “You can tell me.”
He nodded, inhaling raggedly. “I know there are other things we can do. With our hands and…our mouths.” His cheeks flushed adorably. “But I really want to make love to you. Like, be inside you. I’m still learning how to listen to my body, but I feel certain I’d like to do that.”
“I want that too,” I said quickly, so he’d know I had no hesitation. “But I don’t have condoms.”
His forehead raised. “Do we need them?”
“I have an IUD. And I haven’t been with Stone in months. I got tested when I had my last physical, which was after that, when I started my job. So as long as it’s okay with you, we can go without.”
“I don’t mean to sound like a caveman, but I’d really like that.”
I guffawed. “Something primal in you, Bear? Feeling the need to mark me?”
Even as I grinned, his face remained unsmiling. “Is that so bad? All of a sudden, my world is different. I was happy before, and I made it work for myself. But now I can have a whole different future. And the best part of it is that you’re with me. I don’t want to freak you out, but I hope you know how much I love you.” With intention, he rolled me onto my back and brought himself to a hands-and-knees position above me. “I adore you. And I’m so humbled and honored that you’ve changed my life. That I get to be with you.”
Everything he said ignited my senses. Who didn’t want to be loved so completely? But it was important to me that he understood we were on equal footing.
“I’m the lucky one, Leo. And you should know how much I love you too.” I reached my arms up and touched his cheeks. “A week ago, I thought I needed to put distance between us because being near you reminded me of all the things I wanted from a relationship but couldn’t have. Now I don’t have to worry about finding the next best thing. Being with you is my dream. You're everything and exactly enough. And I’m going to make sure you never doubt that.”
“Thank you,” he whispered, tapping our foreheads. A moment later, he pushed my right knee to my chest and lined up the headof his cock with my entrance. Inch by inch, he pressed in, until he was fully seated. “I’m inside you,” he rasped.
“You’re inside me.”
He kissed me again and began moving, rocking his hips slowly back and forth. Trying to find his rhythm in a dance that was new to him.
And because it was with Leo, it felt new to me too.
He gazed at me as he thrusted, smiling at his own brand of clumsiness, and I grinned back. I’d had sex before. I’d participated in sex before. But this was the first time it felt like I wassharingsex with someone.
A tear slipped out of my eye, and he caught it with his thumb, smearing the wetness across my cheek.
“It’s a happy one, right?” he asked softly.
“So happy.”
He hitched my other leg up, practically folding me in half, and I knew he was getting close. “I want you to come too,” he said. “How do I make that happen?”
I smirked. “Another day, remind me to give you my lecture about how sex education needs to include giving boys the memo that making a girl come in missionary position with just your hard cock is sort of a pro-level move.”
He chuckled. “Noted. So what can I do?”
I nipped at his chin. “Someday, with practice, we can probably get there. I believe in us. But for now, I’m gonna help you out.” I reached down and put a finger on my clit. Surprisingly, I didn’t have to do much. Thanks to Leo’s size and sheer enthusiasm, I was already close. “Just keep stroking your big hard cock inside me.”
