Page 42 of Bullied Forced Omega
That moment…
That…
Breathe, Mira.
Whatever that was, it was just what it was, and I shouldn’t think about it again.
Jace is the Alpha. He will always put his duty first, and that is what he did tonight.
There is nothing more between us. Nothing more than obligation, and I would be naive and reckless to let myself think otherwise.
Besides, I don’t want anything more either. So fine. We’re even. We’re on the same page.
I shower for a long time, and when I climb out, Jace is busy dealing with a food delivery. He called to the pack house and had them put together some roast and vegetables for us, along with rice, garlic bread, and chocolate brownies and ice cream for dessert. Of course, in true wolf style, they bring enough food for seven people. I guess when the Alpha asks for something, the pack will always go above and beyond what is called for.
Thank goodness, though, because after what just happened, I could finish all of that on my own. Jace smiles and says goodbye as he closes the door behind the two guys who carried the food here.
My stomach growls loudly, and my eyes shoot wide in embarrassment.
He chuckles as he turns toward me.
“Don’t worry, I feel the same,” he muses. He smiles tightly when he sees my tension. “Look, I know you wanted pizza, I heard you talking to Avery, but I couldn’t wait that long, so I had them bring whatever the chef made tonight.”
“Oh, no, that’s perfect, honestly,” I nod.
“You sure? Can I order a pizza for later tonight? I’ve heard about how hungry your wolf can get when you’re in heat,” he offers.
I bite my lip, and Mika lifts her head, perking up at the idea.
Rolling my eyes, I laugh. “Ok, Mikamightwant pizza later. If not, I’ll just have it for lunch tomorrow.”
It’s hard to be near him after seeing what I saw when he marked me. It’s hard to sit here and not discuss it. I want to ask him if he saw the same thing. Or maybe if he felt it. But I don’t want to sound like a fool.
By the end of dinner, I’ve decided that the best thing to do is to pretend it didn’t even happen.
The pain of my heat cycle is subdued for now. I can finally get through the day without being a raging hormonal lunatic.Focus on your work, keep your head down, stop thinking about whatever that was.
Over the next few days, that’s exactly what I do. My cycle isn’t finished, but for now, I am satisfied.
Jace doesn’t even seem to notice that I’m keeping my distance, which only proves my point to myself. He did his duty with me. Now he’s focused on his pack.
One afternoon, I get a text from my top student, Lila, begging me to please excuse her from class the next day, but to please, please take notes for her, and she promises to catch up and not lag behind.
Worried, I reply and tell her I’ll drop off the lecture notes this evening, and I ask her if she needs anything.
Her reply floods me with anxiety, but also makes me smile.
Lila:I met my fated-mate today. I knew it immediately. He’s taking me out for dinner tonight after his training session, and I might stay at his place if things go well. I can’t think about anything else, I’m so excited!
The anxiety in me isn’t for her. It’s purely my own issues. Jealousy, maybe. A silly little girl kind of jealousy that she gets to fall in love instead of being pushed onto someone who doesn’t really want her. Then, at the same time, I scoff at myself because I neverwantedlove after experiencing rejection. So what I got is maybe what I needed. Just sex and obligation. And the freedom to focus on my work instead of stupid love rubbish.
But still, I’m smiling for her.
Me:I’ll come and drop the lesson info off on my way home around six. Where will you be?
Lila:I’ll be at the military training academy in the forest. That’s where I’m meeting him after his training session with the pack this evening.
Me:I’ll see you there. I’m really happy for you, Lila.
