Page 101 of Unbreakable
“I miss it,” she said, rubbing her nose with mine.
I spun on my heel and took her hand, heading for the parking garage. “Let’s go.”
“You’resure you’re ready for this? You want me to pull out?”
Jeanine’s pants were around her knees with her feet on either side of my hips, her bare ass in my hands. Her hands were settled on my shoulders, and my pants also to my knees. She was rocking her pussy against my cock, admittedly not the clearest way to make a decision.
“I want you to come inside me,” she rasped, then bit her lip.
My hands slipped to her hips. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah. Why wouldn’t I be?”
I squeezed her hips to stop her rocking, trying to get some blood flow to my brain and away from my dick. “I need to know you want me, J. A couple of weeks ago you weren’t sure about me.”
Her brows knit. “Of course I do.”
I cocked my head to the side, pleading with her to level with me, so she went on. “I want you, Dylan. I want to spend my life with you. And I want to try again for a baby with you. I think you’ll be an amazing dad, and I think actually trying this time might be fun.”
I pressed my lips together and she looked a few breaths away from crying.
“Do you want a baby with me, Dyl?”
I squeezed my eyes shut and sucked in a breath. “I do. But I don’t want it to destroy us if it doesn’t work out.”
She shook her head. “It won’t.”
“It can’t,” I said. “I can’t lose you, J.”
“You won’t.”
Our gazes locked, and everything passed between us: all the pain, all the joy, all the ways we were mirror souls and twin flames, all the reasons why Jeanine was mine and I was hers.
“I can’t, baby,” I whispered.
“Can’t what?”
I worked to fill my lungs, the pressure of the moment making it unduly difficult. “I really can’t lose you, Jeanine. It would break me.”
Her chest heaved, once, twice. “Then keep me.”
I let those words wash over me. She was asking me to commit, and I needed the same from her. We’d just said our wedding vows a few months prior, but this moment had more weight. Right after we said “I do,” our high-flying fantasy rug was pulled out from under us.
I thought I’d lose her. To Temecula. To Andy. To grief. To the darkness inside her.
But all I wanted was her. Her, staying with me, committing to me even when life hit us in the face with a ton of bricks.
“Stay with me, Jeanine. Don’t give up on me. I’m not always going to do everything right, but I love you so fucking much. I want this more than anything, but I need to know you’re not leaving. Please.”
Her thumbs stroked over my ears. “I’m not leaving. I’m here.”
“Forever?”
Her throat worked as she swallowed. “Forever.”
I sealed my arms around her and kissed her harder than I ever had. Harder than our wedding day, harder than when she told me she’d marry me and have a baby with me, harder than when I was trying to reach her in the depths of her darkness.
And from that kiss, we made a choice. Our bodies chose a future together. I chose to love Jeannie, no matter how hard itcould be sometimes. She chose me, even though she didn’t know what could lie ahead.
