or a bad reaction to Mom’s sloppy Joes.
 
 But it wasn’t.
 
 Clear Blue Easy
 
 I Went Through
 
 the next few days
 
 pretty much like
 
 a zombie.
 
 People wanted crank.
 
 I sold it to them.
 
 Teachers wanted homework.
 
 I gave it to them.
 
 Jake wanted to razz me.
 
 I let him.
 
 Mom wanted to know what was wrong.
 
 I had nothing to say.
 
 The monster called to me too.
 
 For once,
 
 I refused to answer.
 
 Friday night, I crawled into bed,
 
 sank way, way low.
 
 Submerged myself
 
 in a world of watery dreams:
 
 Tears. An ocean of tears.
 
 And a baby, a boy,
 
 afloat in that salty sea.
 
 He cried out to me.
 
 Could I swim away solo?
 
 Would I drown saving him?
 
 Saturday
 
 I spent the day: