pumps, make coffee and hot dogs. Three
 
 weeks and three days of Kevin’s leers
 
 [not to mention “accidental” gropes]
 
 and semirude comments about
 
 the growing appeal of my shrinking
 
 behind. It even looks good covered
 
 by a smock! A nasty green smock,
 
 over looser and looser jeans.
 
 Not that I’ve been into the monster—
 
 not much, anyway. I only have a tiny bit
 
 left, and I haven’t looked to score
 
 more. I only take a quick toke or two
 
 when Hunter doesn’t sleep through
 
 the night and I have to be at work
 
 by seven. Quarter till, actually, but I rarely
 
 punch in before 7:03 or 7:04.
 
 The job isn’t bad, actually. Not great.
 
 Not life-changing. But not as boring
 
 as I thought it would be. At least
 
 it’s around people. Some I even know.
 
 Old classmates. Old teachers. [Really
 
 old, most of them.] Old party pals.
 
 And hey. Tomorrow is my first paycheck.
 
 How will I celebrate? Hmm.
 
 I have definitely vacillated about
 
 scoring again. I want to. Don’t want to.
 
 Need to. Can’t. Bree is screaming
 
 for the monster. Kristina keeps trying
 
 to say no. But somewhere deep inside
 
 she thinks Bree will win.