Okay, I didn’t know that, specifically,
 
 but it doesn’t surprise me. Part of me
 
 is revolted, part fascinated. What kind
 
 of videos, exactly? Do I know any
 
 of the girls? Would I ever stoop that
 
 low? [How much does it pay, anyway?]
 
 I formulate a careful answer.
 
 “Uh, I don’t really think so. Not now,
 
 anyway. I’m still getting my figure
 
 back, and I don’t have a lot of spare
 
 time, with the baby and all.
 
 But I’ll think about it, okay?”
 
 We Leave It at That
 
 And it isn’t until I run to
 
 the bank on my lunch break
 
 that it comes to me Kevin
 
 thinks I’m some sort of whore.
 
 I don’t see myself that way at all.
 
 Open-minded, yes. A druggie, sometimes.
 
 An unwed teen mother, for sure. But
 
 a sleep-around? No way. Never.
 
 So why am I so hot for Trey?
 
 Sex with him is definitely not
 
 out of the question. Maybe even
 
 tonight. So am I a whore?
 
 [I am!] But I’m not. I want more
 
 than just sex. I want a relationship—
 
 someone to love and to love me.
 
 Will Trey be that? I don’t know.
 
 The attraction between us is sexual,