or smokes to underage people
 
 are common. I don’t want
 
 to get him in trouble, not when
 
 he might be helpful in the future.
 
 Besides, one cancer stick, with
 
 no more in a drawer, won’t
 
 get me hooked again. Right?
 
 Slot dude smiles a knowing
 
 smile, shakes one from the
 
 hard pack. You owe me one.
 
 Yech. He’s scruffy. Kind
 
 of smelly. I definitely hope
 
 he doesn’t think I owe him.
 
 Grady hands me some matches.
 
 No law against that, right?
 
 “Thanks. I’ll be in touch.”
 
 I retreat outside, into the cool
 
 of sunless morning. My hands
 
 shake a bit as I fire the Camel Light.
 
 It tastes like heaven. Like
 
 if I could just keep smoking
 
 it, I’d never need to eat again.
 
 If you’ve never smoked, you won’t
 
 understand that, but if you have,
 
 you know exactly what I mean.
 
 I suck the poison slowly,
 
 with great, immediate pleasure.
 
 It’s almost as good as…
 
 Okay, maybe not as good as
 
 that. But it calms me,