So why didn’t they lash
 
 out at me, bombard me
 
 with
 
 questions, search my stuff,
 
 smell my breath, something?
 
 Do they just not want
 
 to know for sure, stress
 
 themselves with such
 
 wisdom?
 
 Or have they, perhaps,
 
 simply given up
 
 on me?
 
 That Feeling
 
 Of wanting to sleep,
 
 desperately needing sleep,
 
 fighting the monster for sleep,
 
 reminds me of one reason
 
 I have been happy to leave
 
 the meth in Hunter’s wake.
 
 Though it’s calling to me,
 
 Just one more little toot,
 
 I simply will not give in.
 
 I will keep the monster in
 
 check. I am stronger
 
 than any addiction. Right?
 
 Somewhere, a telephone
 
 rings. I swim up into gray
 
 afternoon, the inside of
 
 my head thick as chowder,
 
 tug myself from bed,