Page 8 of Feast of Sparks (Thornchapel 2)
“Now that isn’t so hard, is it, Sir? Never mind—I can see exactly how hard it is.”
“Quartey.”
“Don’t Quartey me. And your first lesson is this, so listen up, Sir Guest: your self-consciousness is inevitable and it’s also valuable. You wouldn’t be here if there wasn’t some part of you that was an arrogant arsehole, but arrogance and arseholery can only ever be the seasoning to your scenes. You’re here for Proserpina, you’re here to give her what she needs, and your self-consciousness means you’re aware of that. Embrace it even while you work to get past it.”
“Yes, Ma’am.”
“I actually prefer Mistress if we’re getting technical. Now then,” Rebecca comes closer, her boots thunking across the wood planks with a very Domme-like drama, “we’ve got our submissive undressed and ready. Next we’ll inspect her. It’s not something I do in every scene, with every person, because it’s undeniably sexual and very possessive and not every submissive wants that. Poe, have you ever been inspected before?”
Keeping my eyes down, I shake my head. I’ve done many naked scenes, and I have no doubt my exes enjoyed watching my body during them, but I’ve never done this. Whatever this is.
I want it, though, I want anything that pleases them and shames me. I want something new and thrilling to clamp me in its jaws and shake me until I’m so limp and spent that I can’t remember what happened today. That I can’t feel anything other than the grinding euphoria of endorphin-fueled release.
“Good,” Rebecca says, sounding pleased. “You and Auden will get to have this first together then. I want you to cross your arms behind your back and then spread your legs as far apart as they’ll go.”
I obey, and Auden’s ragged exhale matches my own as the undeniable lewdness of the posture unfolds. With my arms behind my back, my full breasts jut forward, and with my knees this far apart, my cunt is completely exposed to the cool air of the room. I can feel that I’ve already grown damp, can see the tightly bunched points of my nipples, and when Auden steps closer, his feet coming into my field of vision, I shudder with undiluted arousal to think of him seeing me this way. Like a sex puppet, a doll. A nothing-girl to ease his body and then forgotten.
I can barely breathe with the filthy, indecent excitement of it.
“Now,” Rebecca says softly, “we inspect.”
She gets down to one knee—Auden mirroring her—and then with no preamble or foreplay, she takes Auden’s hand and guides it straight to my waiting pussy.
I nearly feel, as well as hear, the noise in Auden’s chest as his fingers slide over my intimate flesh, and I think I’d give away every book I own—the memory of every book I’ve ever read—to see his face right now. To see if his eyes are more green or brown, to see if he’s fighting a frown or a smile, to see if he’s getting drunk off my humiliation the same way I’m getting drunk off his power. And even though he’s touched me before—several times last night—there’s something about this that feels new and incredible. Momentous.
He seems to feel this way too, because his hand moves to mold over my entire mound, cupping me and my heat like it belongs to him now.
God. It does. It does belong to him now. Not just in this room, but everywhere.
I belong to him.
And I have no idea what that means for Saint and me.
Rebecca’s voice comes low and husky. “See how her pussy is parted like this, with her legs so far apart? How you can stroke right inside?”
“Yes,” Auden whispers, his fingers mimicking her words and pressing inside me. I can’t help but wriggle against them, even though I’m sore
and still new to penetration, and my wriggling earns me a quick slap on the breast. I squeak and freeze in obedience, even though Auden’s thoughtful exploration of my hole is driving me crazy.
“She’s not allowed to get pleasure until we say so,” Rebecca tells Auden. “Even though we’re here for her, everything happens according to your will. Your pleasure.”
“Quite the paradox,” Auden murmurs, hooking his fingers forward and pressing against a place inside that makes me gasp.
“Indeed, Sir Guest.” She still says Sir Guest with a grin in her voice, like she’s teasing him, but it sounds so right, so inevitable—like I would always be inspected by a Sir and by Auden Guest—that it hardly feels mocking at all. It fits him too well. “Now you should inspect her breasts. Feel free to make her clean your fingers or if you’d like, you can wipe them on her skin.”
Auden takes her last suggestion, wiping his fingers on my thigh like I’m nothing more than a well-educated handkerchief, and the act is so demeaning and so erotic that I have to keep myself from wriggling again. Especially after he takes the weight of my breasts in his palms and squeezes hard enough to send tendrils of pain blooming up and down my body. He traces the curves with a studied slowness, as if he’s seeing them with an architect’s eye, and then he plucks and rolls my nipples until they’re rose-dark and aching and my cunt is hot and swollen enough to hurt.
“What do you think, Guest?” Rebecca asks. “Are they to your liking? Her cunt too?”
“Yes,” Auden says. There’s still some huskiness burning at the edges, but his voice sounds stronger now. Surer. As if the same spell that drags me into the clear, sweet waters of submission drags him somewhere else, somewhere equally potent and necessary.
“Is there anything else you’d like to see?”
“Yes,” he says, giving a breast one last squeeze. “Her bottom, if I may.”
“I do believe you were forbidden from using that may word,” Rebecca says, amused. “Nothing is denied us here. Poe, I want you to touch your forehead to the floor—keeping your arms behind your back and keeping your legs spread as far as you can. Your Sir would like to see your arsehole, and so would I.”
Shame, hot and prickling, needles everywhere at my face and chest and belly as I begin to bend down to the floor. The cool air that caresses my pussy is now everywhere as the position begins to expose my most secret flesh, and there’s no pretending away the reality of what I’m doing. I’m doing something I’ve never done before, I’m offering up the filthiest part of me for inspection, and despite everything the three of us have shared in the past twenty-four hours, I’m flooded with shame. It’s real shame now, not play-shame, and my safe word floats to the top of my mind, a buoy in the clear waters.
