Page 101 of Muse (Fighting Fate)

“I’m pretty sure he loves you, Mia. He was crying before.”

Shit. He was crying? This was madness. I wanted to pinch myself to see if it was all just a dream. My heart ached. I felt so bad. From what Aiden and Kaeli told me, it sounded like I was hurting him pretty bad. How was I supposed to make it better though? How was I supposed to fix it when I was as confused as hell? I couldn’t make myself remember.

“It scares me,” I whispered.

Kaeli took my hand and squeezed it tightly. “I know, but try not to think about it too much. It’ll come back to you when you’re ready. Jace will be okay. He just blames himself for not being there to protect you.”

I shook my head. I was with Jace. Shit.

Chapter 49

Jace

The silence that hung in the air around me was at exact odds to the war going on inside my head. Inside me was chaos. Complete. Fucking. Chaos.

I had so many different emotions running riot in there, I had no fucking chance of compartmentalizing them.

As I sat on the bench down the end of my back yard, I thought about each and every one of them. Guilt. Anger. Fear. Despair. Grief. It was all there. And the end result seemed to be nausea.

I knew the doctor had said her memory should come back, but I was so fucking scared what would happen if it didn’t.

Footsteps crunching on the leaves had me looking up. I watched Aiden’s figure as he moved towards me. His expression was unreadable. Panic joined the other emotions, uninvited. “Is she okay?”

Aiden sat down beside me. “Yeah, she fine. She’s asking a lot of questions about you.”

Hope quickly pushed everything else out of the way. “Can she remember anything?”

Aiden offered me a piteous smile. “Not yet.”

I exhaled hard, my chest aching.

“Apparently Mom told her they went to get contraception. Anything you want to tell me?”

Not fucking likely. I gave him a hard look. “Nope.”

“I told her I had to beat you up now.” I clenched my jaw and gave him a warning look. If he tried, he would lose. I had some pretty fucked up energy pulsing through me at that moment. He smirked. “She yelled at me.”

I sighed. “I can’t stand this, Aiden. What if she never remembers? What if she doesn’t ever want to get back together? I don’t know what the fuck I’m supposed to do.”

“She’s only been awake for a few hours. Give her some time.”

“I need to see her. I need her to see me.”

Aiden pressed his lips together and nodded. “Yeah, I imagine you do.”

“Do you think your mom will let me?”

He pushed himself to his feet and gave me a determined stare. “We’re not going to tell her.”

***

I opened the door hesitantly. I had no idea what to expect. I hoped she wasn’t going to flip out on me. I really didn’t want to upset her.

Seeing her sitting up quietly, staring out the window, I pushed the door open further and stepped inside.

Mia’s head turned, and when she saw me standing there, her eyes instantly went wide. “Jace-” My name came out like a breath.

I gave her a sad smile, finding it hard to hide the pain inside me. “Hi. Can I come in?” I don’t know why I asked, because if she said no, I wouldn’t leave anyway – not until I got to talk to her.

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