Page 97 of Perfect Guy

Canaan: I don’t want to wake up each day wondering what it’d be like to love you up close and personal. I don’t want to love you from a distance

Canaan: I’m fucking stubborn

Canaan: Do you remember our first date? The arcade?

Madelyn: I do

Canaan: I think I still have some of those coins left

Madelyn: You beat me at Pac Man

Canaan: I kicked your ass lol

Madelyn: A gentleman would’ve let me win

Canaan: True but an honest man wouldn’t lie to you. You’re not fragile or need protecting. You’re strong

Madelyn: You’re right. I would get pissed if you let me win lol

Canaan: I had a feeling

Madelyn: How are you feeling?

Canaan: Better. I’m not having so many lapses in memory anymore and the headaches are better some days

Madelyn: I’m glad

Canaan: How are you?

Madelyn: I’m…ok

Canaan: That doesn’t sound good

Madelyn: I want to believe you won’t push me away again but I’m scared. I’m scared you’ll react the same if something else happens. I want to

trust you

Canaan: Then trust me. I don’t want to live without you

Madelyn: Me either but fear is lingering underneath my hope

Canaan: I’ll make you see it

Madelyn: Hope so. Gotta go to bed. I have an early meeting tomorrow

Canaan: Goodnight

Madelyn: Night

Canaan: Good morning beautiful

Madelyn: Good morning

Canaan: Have a good day babe

Madelyn: Thanks, you too

I set my phone aside. I need to prove to her that I’m not going to be the same asshole. I need her. I want her.

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