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Will me or my baby ever be safe?

Chapter Ten

SILAS

A mix of emotions comes from the bond I have with Jade, but I can’t really understand them. It hurts that she seems to be in distress of some kind and I can’t be there to help her through it. All I want to do is hold her in my arms once more but I doubt that’ll be happening any time soon.

After Bell fed me, and I mean he literally forked the nuggets and put them in my mouth I felt a little better, or I should say that my body feels better. My heart still feels like a squashed tin can but my head is definitely thinking more clearly.

Or at least enough not to be a burden on the planning for the defensive maneuvers for the pack house. With Dell and Alec’s magic we were able to make perimeter stakes that would sound an alarm in the house if people with ill intent breached. It seemed a little far-fetched but honestly I trust Dell with my life so if she says it will work then I have to believe that.

Jace suggested we try it out with Remy to make sure it’s working but no one had seen him today. It made both my Betas nervous not knowing the trouble maker's whereabouts but I had more important things to worry about than one idiot wolf going off and trying to get himself killed or captured. Which is exactly what would happen if the witches caught him unaware.

It would solve one big problem for me, but I’m just not that kind of Alpha. If I have a problem with a pack member I’d rather handle it than send them to slaughter. I’m not a monster even though my mate apparently thinks that I am.

Fuck, I miss her. But I can’t think about that now. I need to keep my pack safe.

“You’ll be required to sign in and out and there will be a curfew unless you go out with a buddy,” Bellamy tells the pack, and the room fills with groans.

Since I previously had to cancel the pack meeting we decided to have one now that we had some security measures in place. The only way to keep everyone safe for now is to be strict. More like how my father ran things, but only until the witches are taken care of and out of our lives for good.

“We have lives you know,” a she-wolf sasses.

“Yes, and if you’d like to keep them you’ll do what your Alpha asks of you… without complaint,” I direct at her, but make sure to meet the eyes of the rest of the pack as well. Normally, I’m not big on making the pack bow to my dominacne, but, fuck couldn’t they see it’s for their own good!

“Yes, Alpha,” she says, her voice shaking, now that she can see I’m not playing games with her.

“I think that’s all, if you have any further questions please write them down and slip them into this jar and we’ll answer them when we meet again tomorrow,” Bell tells them. Turning I leave the room without a backwards glance having my fill of pack drama today. It’s not that I don’t love my pack or wouldn’t do anything to keep them safe. My patience is just running thin with my emotional state.

It’s why I let Bellamy run the meeting and inform the pack instead of Jace or I doing it. Jace never has patience for these kinds of things so we don’t let him run meetings very often. He’s very much into tough love and doesn’t take bullshit. He really is the best at protecting the pack though, his hyper focus on things that matter made him the perfect Beta to help with making the pack house safe.

The three of us together really do make the perfect team to keep things going in the pack. But we also are great emotional support for each other. When Bell’s soft touch approach didn’t work to bring me out of my spiral, Jace’s harsh words were like a shock to my system. I’m more grateful to both of them than they’ll ever know.

“I think we’ve had enough socializing today, or at least I have. Why don’t we head upstairs?” Jace suggests taking my elbow and steering me in that direction.

As if I need the help. I’m more than ready for a few hours of peace and quiet.

Footsteps echo in the halls behind us and it makes me think that Bell is also trying to escape the pack tonight. Usually he’s the one with all the understanding who would wait around and answer questions but he’s hurting too so I understand his reluctance.

I can’t believe we all have the same mate.

It’s not something that I ever thought possible so I never let myself hope. In the back of my mind I always knew a day would come when I would have to give up my two best friends for my mate. It was something I kept pushing away as the years went on and we got closer.

We didn’t start out as lovers.

We were just best friends and had a Beta/Alpha relationship within the pack. One drunken night we took things a step further and never looked back. I’m not sure I’d even still be the Alpha of this pack if not for those two by my side all these years.

“Where are we going?” I ask when he steers me away from my room.

“Your room smells like self loathing and depression, you’re coming to my room and Bell and I are going to give you a proper welcome home,” he comments, giving me a wink over his shoulder.

“Wow. Still not pulling any punches are you, dick,” I say but all he does is chuckle as he opens up his bedroom door and ushers me inside.

“You don’t need to be babied. You need a way to work out a little of the stress you have built up and I know the perfect thing,” he smirks at me before pulling his shirt over his head and tossing it across the room.

“I don’t think sex is the problem solver that you think it is Jace,” I tell him, rolling my eyes but smiling.

“Who said anything about sex? I thought we would play some go fish. You have a dirty mind Alpha,” he teases, just as Bell comes in and shuts the door quickly.

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