Page 34 of The Handoff

Chapter 18

Lisa

Aftergettingsomethingto eat from the cafeteria, I felt a little lonely as I slumped down at the table. I wished Dane had joined me for something to eat, but I knew he couldn’t since he had to study.

“Penny for your thoughts,” Tanya said as she sat down next to me.

“I didn’t even see you come in last night.”

She picked at a piece of bacon on my plate. “Yeah. Was with Bianca last night, dancing like crazy. I know you wanted to rest your ankle still, so I left you to it. I sent you a message, but you must not have had your phone.”

“I didn’t, I called Nan, spoke to her, and then I put it on the charger and turned it off because it was almost out of battery.”

She nodded. “Cool. I’m going to get something to eat, too.”

“Argh,” I sighed.

“What?”

“Well,” I explained while getting close to her, making sure no one could hear the conversation. “I saw Dane, but he was going to the library to study. Wish he was here with me. Missing him already.”

She laughed. “A word of advice. Dane is just a boy, and you shouldn’t put him on a pedestal like everyone else does. You should treat him as a guy, not some kind of God.”

I nodded and ushered her to go get some food. It was as if hearing the truth, the right thing made me feel a little edgy, but then again Tanya had no idea what I’d been through. Why should she? I falsely smiled at her as she stood and patted her jeans, something she always did whenever she was thinking of what to eat.

I should treat Dane like I would any other guy, but he wasn’t any other guy and once again this morning, he was different. He seemed shyer than the day before, and I loved the way he changed his mood depending on what time of day it was. I loved it even more that I made him horny by touching him. His length was becoming long and hard when I was so close to him. Memories of him being in between my thighs flooded my mind. While I didn’t see his cock, I knew it was big; so big that it completely filled me and had me wanting to come back for more.

I didn’t know if it was the start of something or just lust?

I wasn’t experienced enough to know the difference, but I enjoyed being with him before our time in the bedroom, even if he did sneak off in the middle of the night. Waking up and seeing his side of the bed empty tugged at my heart. This must be why Tanya stayed away again last night. Maybe she walked in while he was in my bed and then crept out. I apologized to her and told her it wouldn’t happen again or at least, if it did, I would warn her about it first.

Girlfriend.

This was the kind of thing they did, wait on their boyfriend, attend games, etc. I was going to be one of those girls, the type who would take my role seriously, but then again, I still had to do my own thing and I was captain of the cheerleading squad. I wouldn’t completely lose myself in his work schedule. No, I still had to be my own person, too.

What was I talking about?

I had to stop being so uptight and just go with the flow. I would go to the game, not wait for him to finish. I had to show my support, even though I wasn’t a big football fan, or would that be called stalking?

I would relish in this feeling, I couldn’t help it. We shared a magical night, not only because we had sex, but because he took my virginity. He knew what he was doing, and I handed it to him on a card.

Tanya sat down and I noticed her plate was a replica of mine. I toyed with my food and ate my pancakes with maple syrup and bacon. There was nothing more satisfying than having pancakes for breakfast. I giggled to myself as I thought, well, not exactly nothing… I could think of one thing, and it started with D and ended with E.

“Are you still thinking about him?” she whispered, this time it was her turn to make sure no one was listening to the conversation.

I threw my head back, knowing I was guilty as charged. “I can’t help it. Hey, one strip for me. You took one of mine.”

“Still hungry?”

“Yeah, but not for bacon… for sausage!”

“He turned you into a dirty girl,” she shrieked.

I shook my head. “You have no idea.”

I took a deep breath, remembering our night, and closing my legs, thinking I would make myself come in the cafeteria, even if not many people were around. It was too early on a Saturday morning to expect a wave of students to come in for breakfast, since most of them were still in bed recovering from the night before.

“I can’t help it. I know you say that I shouldn’t be chasing after him or even act as if he’s my world, but I can’t help it.”

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