Page 61 of Kayden: The Past
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I Held My Breath - Sophia
It seemedlike yesterday when Sophia said, “I’m pregnant.” My heart skipped a beat before pounding feverishly in my chest with the realization that I’d be a father. Joy didn’t even begin to describe how I felt, but a sense of panic consumed me when I thought about the child I’d lost years ago.
I was almost paralyzed by fear for months. I waited for a call telling me I’d live the nightmare again. I doted on Sophia, not wanting to risk the health of our baby.
“Kayden, really, I’m more than capable of washing dishes and cleaning. I’m pregnant not dying.” She sat in the chair and stared at me like a child, with her arms crossed. She rested her arms on her giant belly, and the sight of her with my child growing inside brought me the most joy I’d ever experienced in my life. “I’m due any day now, sweetheart. The baby can come out and survive. Stop stressing out.”
“Sophia, just sit and relax. Kick your feet up, babe. You have a baby to take care of, and I want her safe.” I sprayed the counters and started to scrub the surface. “Who’s the boss?”
“So sure it’s a girl, huh? And to answer your second question, Tony Danza.”
God, she was such a nerd at times, and I loved her for it. “Goofball with the throwback. I can feel it, baby doll. She’ll be as beautiful as her momma, too. Big brown eyes with a thick head of hair. I can’t wait to hold her in my arms.” I could be a hard ass at times, but I was a mush on the inside. Sophia was really the only person I’d ever let see that side of me. I’d never been vulnerable in front of anyone, but with her, I knew I could be myself.
“Well, I deal with enough girls at work all day at the school library, trust me… We want a boy.” She leaned back and rested her head and began to scratch her stomach. “Who knew I’d be so fucking miserable with this alien growing inside me and fat as fuck, too.”
“You’re beautiful, Sophia.”
“Ohh, mmm,” she moaned.
“You’re making my cock hard over here, Sophia. Stop with all the noises.” I stopped and watched her. She almost looked like she did when I made her come.
“I can’t help it. My skin is so damn itchy. It’s almost orgasmic.” Her eyes rolled back in her head, and I stood there unable to move. It was erotic to watch, although she didn’t mean it to be. I’d been so horny lately but too scared to fuck her and risk hurting the baby.
“Stop, you’re fucking killing me,” I said.
“Why don’t you make me?” She continued rubbing her belly and making sounds that made my cock twitch.
I started walking toward her with the intent to give her other reasons to moan when she shot straight up and screamed, “Fuck!”
“What?” I yelled and rushed to her side.
“Contraction…” Her breathing stopped.
“Remember Lamaze, Sophia. Breathe, don’t hold it in.” What the fuck did I know? I listened to every word they said in that class and read every book I could find on pregnancy, but I didn’t have a human clawing its way out of my body.
“Fuck Lamaze, Kayden.” Well, at least she had to take a breath to put me in my place. “Should we go to the hospital now or wait?”
“I’m not waiting. Fuck, I’m not taking a chance with you or my little girl. I’ll grab the stuff. You wait here,” I said as I hopped up and headed toward the bedroom.
I could hear her say, “Where the fuck would I go?” I could see this wasn’t going to be an easy process. Sophia rarely had crabby days, but this was going to be a whopper.
“Come on, baby doll. I have everything.” I helped her to her feet, locked up the house, and headed to the hospital for the birth of our child.
“One more push, Sophia,”the doctor between her legs said.
“I can’t. I’m too tired.”
“Come on, baby. We’re so close. You’re the strongest woman I know.” I patted her forehead with a cool, damp cloth.
“It hurts too much, Kayden.” Her head tossed back and forth.
“You can do it.” The doctor patted her legs. “Now, Sophia.”
She squeezed my hand so tightly I thought she’d break my fingers. I didn’t say anything though. I wasn’t stupid. She pushed, and I supported her back with my thankfully free hand, helping to hold her up while she gave everything she had.
“Excellent, a little more.” She crunched her body up, and the doctor started to move back. I held my breath as the baby came into view. “It’s a boy.”
