Page 49 of Realm of Flames (Reborn 3)
Maya
I hadn’t plannedon being late to the event my mom was holding, but the longer that I stood under the hot shower water with Croy, the more I considered that being late really wasn’t the worst thing in the world. I let out a soft hum as he kissed my neck, running his lips against my mating mark, making everything heat up once again. His wolf and magic were far more relaxed now, a low, humming vibration against my skin as it surrounded me possessively. It was almost like he was a different person. The Croy pinning me to the mirror and the one here were vastly different, though I loved both of them.
I let out a happy hum as he shut off the water and wrapped me in a towel before he slipped on a robe. Pressing against him, I rested my head against his pectoral as he unpinned my dry hair and ran his fingers through it, his wolf releasing a low rumble from his chest.
“We are probably going to be late,” Croy mused as if reading my mind.
Tilting my head back, I offered a small smile. “At least it’s for a good reason.”
“A damn good one,” he agreed before burying his nose against my hair. I shivered, loving the way I could feel his magic marking me, brushing against my skin and covering me in his scent. Honestly, I hadn’t even wanted to take a shower afterwards because I loved smelling like Croy, but when he noticed that a few glass shards had pricked my skin from the cracked mirror, he’d panicked.
Not only had he made sure every single little speck was removed from my shoulder, but he had then wanted to shower to make sure to get the blood off me. Apparently the blood from that was upsetting his wolf, but the blood from the rather savage mark he left on me did not. My eyes darted to my mark on him as my phoenix preened happily. It felt good—reallygood—to mark him, and I could feel my magic growing stronger each and every time I marked one of them. What that would bring… well, now we knew in part, and it was both exhilarating and nerve-wracking.
“Oh! I never looked at the dress she sent.” I turned from his arms and went towards the closet. He followed, leaning in the doorway again, while watching me unzip the garment bag, my eyes going wide.
“Holy crap,” I muttered, the vibrant explosion of purple, blue, and gold making my heart warm as my chest got that fluttering sensation once more.
“That seems a bit more right,” Croy confirmed, suddenly tilting his ear and looking towards the door. “Why don’t you get ready, sugar. It sounds like the escorts arrived to take us downstairs.”
“Kiss?” I tilted my head back, offering him a smile as he let out a soft rumble, gripping my jaw and slanting a kiss over my lips. As he left, I bit my lip, feeling a smile creep on my face at how satisfied yet sore I felt. My toes curled as I went towards the undergarment drawer where I had found my gold ensemble from before, this time selecting a vibrant blue. Pulling it on, I made sure to check the straps on the dress, happy to actually be able to wear a bra that had straps rather than strapless. I was finding the latter was always falling slightly, which was very annoying to constantly have to adjust. I took out the dress from the garment bag and examined it.
Honestly, this was a dress I would have never chosen to wear either.
Not because it wasn’t something I liked. In fact, it was probably my favorite dress to date. It was beautiful, but I would have never chosen it for myself. It looked like something fit for Queen Cyra, and you had to have a level of confidence that I wasn’t positive I had to pull it off. I wanted to believe I did since it appeared the woman who was actually my mother was so vastly different than the one who raised me.
My eyes closed as a shudder rolled through me, tightening my arms around myself as my breathing went rough. There were times that I could forget that I had been through all of that. Times were it was so far in the back of my mind that I forgot it even happened. But then sometimes it hit me hard.
Sometimes I felt like an imposter living a life that I didn’t deserve.
Wasn’t that the largest issue? I couldn’t find a way to connect the Maya who had been starving in a basement, cold and alone, with this version of myself. The disconnect had me feeling off and caused me to spiral to a place that I didn’t know how to fully deal with.
I knew this was my chance to be happy. I knew this was a second chance to escape the shitty cards I’d been dealt. But the ghosts from my past? They had taken permanent residence, and I wasn’t positive how to get rid of them.
Sometimes all I could see, all I could hear, was the woman that raised me. Her violent hands and words. My throat closed up, the taste of soap in my mouth as I remembered the way she beat me. Mercilessly. A gasp came from my throat as my head started to spin, my hands dropping the dress as I stumbled back to a velvet bench, not making it all the way there before sinking to the floor.
The room began to feel smaller as I put my head to my knees. I was nearly positive that this was one of the panic attacks Jordan had been talking about. A rasping sound that I realized was my breath rapidly drawing in and out echoed through my ears. This was too much. All of it was, and the onslaught of emotion that came with all this realization was hitting me hard enough to make me feel dazed.
I had an entire family I hadn’t known about.
I had been taken and locked away, imprisoned by a witch coven.
I was someone of note in a realm I didn’t even know existed until recently.
My eyes fluttered shut as I pulled my knees up further, my head pulsating in pain. Not even my mating marks could calm me down, and I wasn’t focused on anything but the internal panic racing through me, so I had no idea if they could feel my panic.
“Maya?” Henry’s voice was suddenly against my ear as I trembled, my toes and fingers going numb as I curled further against myself.
“What the hell happened?” Croy’s voice was panicked. “I was just with her—”
“Maya.” Henry’s voice rang more clear in my ear, making my eyes flutter open. It wasn’t just in my ear, though—his voice seemed to resonate through all of me, almost as if he was speaking in my head.
The man in question was crouched before me where I had somehow sunk to the floor, his hands on either side of my face. I sucked in a breath as he said something, my eyes tracing his lips but not really understanding what was coming out. I felt the room spin as I tried to ground myself. That was when I felt a cool, soft energy fill my head and Henry’s magic truly took over, rolling my consciousness completely. Had he been able to do that this entire time?
The relief was nearly instant. My body went limp as I leaned against him, all the anxiety draining from my body as I trembled, tears pricking my eyes.
I wasn’t positive how long I stared at the floor of the closet, my heart slowing, but soon I realized the room was silent, and I could feel both Croy and Henry watching me intently. I lifted my chin and found myself looking into Croy’s eyes. He was crouched next to us, both of them dressed and me barely in clothes, curled up against Henry on the floor. I blinked away residual tears that I hadn’t even realized had fallen. I reached a hand up and smoothed it over his jaw as he let out a concerned sound, our bond filling with vibrant emotion that went from fear to worry.
“Sorry,” I rasped out. “I just… I got really overwhelmed all at once.”
