Page 44 of Knot for Me
“Amelie, every pack wants kids.”
She shakes her head, shoving a sweater inside the bag before tying it off and shaking out another. “That’s a pretty big generalization.”
“The Omega Council teaches us all about what pack life is like. They may not want kids right at this moment, but deep down all alphas have the inherent desire to further their bloodline.”
“Have you talked to them about what they want?”
I shove another handful of clothes into the bag, sighing. “No. We’re not even going there. I don’t want to be an omega.”
Amelie frowns, but doesn’t say anything. We finish filling four bags full of Emily’s clothes. We use a separate bag for her shoes. I carry one with clothes and one with shoes out while Amelie takes the three full of clothes. She pushes in front of me, standing in front of my door.
“I don’t know what the Omega Council did to traumatize you, but you don’t have to have kids. There’s more to being an omega than that, you know that, right?”
I give her a look. “That’s literally all we’re made to do.”
“No.” She scowls. “What the hell are they teaching you guys? Omegas keep the pack together. She soothes the alphas. She makes things feel like home. The omega is the heart of the pack. None of that has anything to do with kids.”
What she’s saying is true, but it doesn’t change the fact that alphas are biologically programmed to procreate.
I hold her stare. “I think you mean well. I’m not going to get mad at you, but you’re not going to change my mind. I know you’re trying to do what’s best for the alphas. Trust me when I say I’m not what’s best. They deserve more.”
Amelie’s face crumples a little, pity taking the place of her frustration, but I block it out. I don’t want pity. Why does everyone keep trying to fix me? I don’t need to be fixed; I need a new life.
“Okay,” she relents. “I’ll drop it, but you’re wrong.”
“About what?” So help me, if she says I’ll want kids too, I’ll smack her.
“They don’t deserve better. You do.” She opens the door and we take the bags to her SUV. Once I put the shoes in, she presses the button that closes the hatch and turns to look at me. “Do you want to go out for lunch sometime?”
I release a breath, thankful she’s not upset. “Yeah, I’d like that.” I frown. “I’ll ask Lucas if it’s okay.”
She laughs. “Trust me, it’s fine. You’re not a hostage.”
“Right,” I say, glancing back at the mansion. “They just bought me and all.”
“I can tell you’re over that part.”
I laugh. “Totally over it. Not even mad.”
“Lunch tomorrow then?”
“Definitely.”
“Cool, I’ll pick you up around eleven-thirty.” She waves and heads to the driver’s side. “See you later.”
“Bye.” I watch her drive away, an odd sense of satisfaction filling me the farther she gets. Emily’s clothes are gone. I won’t have to smell her every day. I should probably buy her flowers. I’m definitely going to Hell for how much I’ve complained about her.
Buying her flowers isn’t going to make you resent her any less.
I scoff at the voice of reason in my head. Logically, I know that’s true, but it’ll make me feel better to do something nice for her since I erased the last traces of her from the house. My resentment is one-hundred percent omega instinct. I know Emily isn’t a threat to me. She’s not at fault. I am.
ChapterEleven
LUCAS
After Amelie leaves, Reagan races back to her room, and it takes every ounce of self-control not to storm after her and demand she talk to me. She’s her own worst enemy, and the funny thing is I think she realizes it. I rub my jaw and growl when I smell her all over my hand. I go to the bathroom and wash my hands, scrubbing furiously to try and erase her scent. I don’t know what I did to make her suddenly want to stop. Everything was fine. Hell, it was damn fine until I knotted her. She said she wanted it though.
Regret floods through me. I should have kept walking. I shouldn’t have gone back when she shouted at me. She gets under my skin. Makes me want to dominate and take care of her all at the same time. For whatever reason, Reagan doesn’t want that. Which should make me happy. The guys and I have been adamant about not finding another omega.
