Page 31 of Must Be Love - Irresistible Bachelors

“None of these details are important.”

“They are!” I tell Nicole. “I want Daisy to know why I would be with such a jerk.”

“I concede your point, but you’d better get a move on. Your appointment is in twenty minutes, remember?”

My heart starts to race again. I had forgotten about the appointment. Talking about my old boyfriends has cleared my head and stopped my anxiety, but now, it comes rushing back at Nicole’s reminder.

I force myself not to think about that right now. Daisy is watching me expectantly. She’s waiting for the rest of the Gunther story.

“I thought things with Gunther were going well until I realized he only ever wanted to be with me in private. He wouldn’t sit next to me in class or hold my hand or anything. And we never went on dates. Most of the time, we made out in his dorm room. Even then, the lights were usually off.”

“Ugh, men are the worst. Please tell me you dumped his ass.”

“It was a mutual breakup.”

“Ugh! You should’ve kicked him to the curb.”

Nicole smirks. “Wait until you hear what she did do.”

“Ooh, I didn’t realize the story was just getting good.”

“After we broke up, I confronted him about the whole secretive behavior. He straight up admitted that he was too embarrassed to be seen with me in public because I’m fat. We were in his dorm at the time, and he kept a pitcher of water next to his bed because he would get thirsty at night. It was full, and I dumped the entire thing over his head and his bed. Those dorm beds don’t dry quickly, either. He slept in the common room for a few days, waiting for his mattress to dry.”

“That’s my girl!” Daisy beams, offering me a high five. I slap my palm against hers. “I’m proud of you.”

“Thanks,” I say. “It was spur of the moment, though. And I haven’t dated anyone since Gunther. I’m afraid of being hurt again. Having someone judge you based on the size of your body sucks.”

Nicole and Daisy wrap me into a group hug.

“I know it sucks, Amber, but you have to get back out there.”

“Nicole has been saying that for years.”

“And she hasn’t listened,” Nicole grumbles. “At least, until now.”

“I haven’t started dating anyone,” I protest.

“But you’re interested in Dr. Blake. That’s a start. Even if nothing comes of this, maybe it’ll be the push you need to start dating again. You know what they say about getting back on the horse.”

It’s easier said than done, though. I may have thrown water on Gunther, but what he said hurt me. I haven’t been able to even consider dating again because I’m convinced everyone is going to look at me the way Gunther did.

Yet Dr. Blake doesn’t seem to care about my weight. He ate my pussy like a man starved, regardless of the size of my thighs or the rolls of my stomach.

Maybe not all guys are the same. At the very least, it would be worth giving Dr. Blake a chance.

If he even wants one.

That’s my other fear. There’s a chance that I’m blowing this out of proportion. Even if Dr. Blake doesn’t go down on all his patients, he may have gotten caught up in the moment. There’s a huge possibility that while I’m thinking about how much I like him and want him to be more than my doctor, he is thinking of me as nothing more than a patient. If he’s even thinking about me at all.

“Are you going to let the good doctor eat you out again?” Daisy asks.

“I don’t know. Would it be wrong of me to say I want him to?”

“Even if you don’t get a relationship out of it?”

“I want more from him, but if oral sex is all he’s willing to give, I’ll take it.”

“It was that good?”

I nod. “Better. None of the guys I’ve been with have made me feel that good. I came so fast!”

“Damn. Maybe he can give my husband some pointers.”

“I like seeing you this way, Amber,” Nicole remarks.

I scrunch my brow. “What do you mean?”

“Unashamed,” she explains. “It’s a big change from your usual self.”

“I guess AJ brings out the best in me.”

“I hope that’s true. I say go for it. Let what is going to happen, happen. But you also need to have a talk with him at some point about what it all means.”

“Talking is what I’m bad at.”

“That’s why I said at some point. For now, just have fun. Let him make you happy. You’re practically glowing.”

“I think that’s the serum.”

Nicole laughs. “No, I think it’s the guy.”

My cheeks turn red. “If you say so. I really should get going. The office isn’t far, but my appointment is soon.”

“Go on then,” Daisy says. “And I expect an update on what happens. I don’t like being out of the loop.”

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