Page 110 of Forever Fallen

There was no doubt in her mind that something was off or changing – and sure enough! This little stick with the lines on it confirmed her suspicions.

She was afraid to get her hopes up, afraid to say anything in case she jinxed it, and wanted to be certain before telling Ryan – especially since they had barely three weeks to see each other the remainder of the year.

A month later, she had an appointment with the obstetrician who confirmed everything. Sophie was healthy, her labs looked good, and her first ultrasound was excellent.

In fact, she was staring in disbelief at the little black and white photograph in her hand, feeling so emotional right now, and torn in so many directions.

While this sweet baby was all she could have wished for, a part of Ryan and a product of their love to grow over the next several months… she also realized he would never visit until the baby was due either.

He was very firm on being here when their child arrived and would not risk missing it by using up his vacation time prior to her due date.

This beloved child would keep him from her – but cause a different love to grow, and she could already feel it taking root within her heart.

Their baby.

Using her phone, she took a photo of the sonogram picture and emailed it to Ryan… knowing it would be February before she saw him again.

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Hey Daddy,

Guess what? We are going to have a baby! So, as much as I hate to say it? I will see you around February 3rd, my darling. Be ready for some action, some sleepless nights, and diapers!

I’m so excited and a little intimidated.

I just met with the obstetrician, got handed a diaper bag full of samples, coupons, and a book to read. It’s very detailed about what is going to be happening to me and our baby over the next nine months.

Here's a photo of our beloved lima bean.

Love you,

Sophie

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Little Mama,

I am sitting at the computer, unable to move, because I might actually start crying and the guys would never let me live it down. That little black and white circle on the photo you sent me – that’s our baby?

I’m so excited, so full of love right now, that I’m literally speechless. I knew, hoped, and prayed this was coming… but now that it’s here? I’m at a loss for words and happy beyond measure!

I love you and our little lima bean so much that words cannot explain.

I will see you in February, my love… and I’m so sorry. I know you would rather I be there, or we break up the time between us, but I need to be there when he (or she) arrives.

Be safe, take care of your health, keep me posted on changes, and I will be there as soon as you get close to delivery.

Yours always,

Daddy

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My sweet baby-daddy,

I understand. I really do. This was always something that we would have to give on, in order for you to be here when our little lima bean arrives… and I can accept that.

The thought of you being at my side when I’m going through such a life-changing event is comforting – even if it means I can’t see you for nine months.

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