Page 39 of Meant To Be - Irresistible Bachelors

If she didn’t want to be with me once the tour was over, she should’ve just said that. It’s not like I was pressuring her to be with me; I thought we both felt the same way.

I try to shake the memories out of my mind. I have to forget about her because it looks like she has already forgotten about me.

Just a week ago, I held her in my arms and told her how much I loved her, but now she’s gone. I thought I had found true happiness, but I was wrong – it was only temporary bliss.

A single tear runs down my cheek as I curl up in a ball. I need her here with me, but she won’t even give me the time of day. I let out a horrific roar, half sadness and half frustration, and the sound travels throughout my empty mansion, echoing against the walls, but no one is here to hear it.

I’m lovesick without her. I miss her smile and the laugh that used to flow from her lips so effortlessly. The sound of it still rings in my mind; I hear it late at night while I’m tossing and turning in bed. I gave her my heart, and she shattered it and then left the pieces behind to cut me.

I close my eyes as I wallow in my own sorrow. A buzzing sound makes me open them, and I sit up and stare at my vibrating cell phone. Is that her? It has to be. The cell phone fumbles in my hands as I snatch it off the coffee table. I can feel my heart racing. Rocky flashes across the screen.

Disappointed and angered, I throw my cell phone against the wall, shattering it into pieces. I don’t want to talk to anyone unless it’s her.

I wish I could say that I regret falling for her, but the two months we spent together were the best days of my life; I wouldn’t trade them for the world. For a short time, I was actually happy. It had felt so good to be in her arms.

Sometimes, I can still feel her body pressed against mine. I can still smell her scent on a black T-shirt of mine that she wore. Her heavenly aroma makes memories flood my mind. I clutch the T-shirt in my hands late at night, inhaling her scent and wishing that I were holding her warm, soft flesh in my grasp instead.

I bang my fists against my head, but no matter what I do, I can’t get her out of my mind. She’s stuck there permanently. Nikki Minx is the love of my life, and I’ll spend the rest of my days pining for her.

Maybe I should fly to Hollywood and demand an explanation in person. She wouldn’t be able to avoid me then, but if she rejects me to my face, it’ll only hurt me even more.

When I first laid eyes on her, I thought she was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. I had to have her from the moment she stumbled into my dressing room. She was innocent and pure. I took her virginity, for Christ’s sake.

I wish I could hold her in my arms and kiss her one last time. I had no idea that when we locked lips in my hotel suite back in Oklahoma City, it would be the last time I would hold her in my embrace. If I had known, I would’ve never let her go. I would have held onto her forever.

I bury my face in my hands as another teardrop rolls down my face. I hadn’t shed a tear in years, not since my dad died. Not until Nikki.

My heart is broken, but I still love her. I’ll love her for the rest of my life.

19

Leo

I slowly roll over in my king-sized bed and glance at the digital clock on my nightstand. It’s three in the afternoon. I roll back over and close my eyes, trying to fall back asleep. A month has passed since the last time I spoke to Nikki. I managed to push my pride aside and call her one more time, but there was still no answer.

I’ve lost all hope; she’s never coming back to me. Rocky calls every day, trying to get me back into the studio, but I’m too depressed to leave this bed. Besides, Nikki was my muse. Without her, I won’t be able to write a single lyric, and I’m damn sure not in the mood to play my guitar and sing. I just want to be left alone.

I thought it would get easier over time, but every day without her gets worse. And when I’m finally able to fall asleep, she haunts my dreams. I see her on stage singing to me, telling me how much she loves me through her lyrics, but when I awake, I feel the sharpest pain in my chest as I realize it was all just a dream.

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