Page 209 of Dirty Discipline, Vol. 2

Caine pulled me into his arms and hugged me. He held on tight and kissed my head. I nuzzled my face into his chest enjoying the warmth of his embrace. I took in his scent and almost moaned in pleasure. It felt so right being held this way. He slowly pulled away and lifted my chin softly to look into his eyes. His face turned stern and serious.

“Neely, I don’t ever want you to put yourself in danger by being that out of control. I can’t express how important you are to me and how horrible it made me feel to see you get sick.” He paused and took a deep breath. “The only good thing that came out of last night is it made me realize I want more from you than just friendship. Seeing that guy with his arms around you made me want to rip them right off. I was more jealous than I had ever been before. I want you to be mine. I want you to be mine, forever.”

I could feel the tears burn the back of my eyes. I couldn’t speak. All I could do was nod in agreement. Caine slowly leaned down and kissed me softly. He ran his fingers through my hair and down my spine. He kissed me with love and tenderness. He pulled his lips away and leaned back to look into my eyes.

“Neely, I love you.”

I smiled. “I love you, too.”

Caine hugged me tighter and held my head against his chest as he kissed the top of my head. I could hear his heartbeat and feel his chest rise with each breath. He had held me before many times. But this time was different. This time he was holding me like a man held his woman. He was holding on to me, never to let me go.

“This is meant to be. We are meant to be together. I have been denying my feelings for too long. You are what I want, Neely. You are what I’ve been looking for,” Caine said lovingly.

My heart was melting. I was in awe of this man. He made me feel so alive and so in love. He made me hopeful and excited for what the future held. I couldn’t imagine feeling anything but passion for this man. I couldn’t possibly be anything else other than hopelessly in love. How had we been anything else?

“Kiss me again…boyfriend.” I flirted with a renewed sense of excitement.

“My pleasure…girlfriend,” Caine murmured as he pressed his lips to mine. He moved his tongue past my lips and explored with the most sensual touch. Tingles shot through my body as I began to melt against his. His kiss was amazing. He was amazing.

Chapter Nine

We spent the day having a nice lunch and shopping for items Caine knew he would need after Sara had all her belongings out of the house. We talked about our future goals, our hopes, and dreams. We discussed what we wished for in a relationship, if we wanted children, and we talked about marriage. I thought I knew everything about Caine as a friend, but realized I still had a lot to learn about Caine as a boyfriend. I felt butterflies in my stomach and felt giddy throughout the entire day. Caine held my hand or put his arm around me as we browsed the shops. He would occasionally lean in and give me small kisses. It felt as if we had been dating for a lifetime. Everything felt so natural, so real. There were no awkward moments, or uncertainty on how to act. I had never felt so happy or felt so content. I didn’t want the day to end. As the sun began to go down, we came crashing through the door with shopping bags under our arms.

Caine dropped his bags and grabbed the ones I had in my hands. “I was thinking of starting a fire and having you and me relax in front of it with a nice bottle of wine. How does that sound?”

I nodded. “That sounds great!”

Caine got a fire started and opened a bottle of red wine. He poured us both a glass and raised it for a toast. “To a new chapter. You and I, in love.”

I raised my glass to his and took a sip. I loved how comfortable I was feeling. I snuggled closer to him on the couch enjoying the warmth from the fire and the heat coming from his body. Caine wrapped his arms tightly around me and held me close. We sat there in silence, staring at the fire for a long time until I felt I had to say something.

“Caine?”

“Yes?”

I took a deep breath. “Do you think we’re making a wise choice? I mean, I don’t want to risk our friendship if this doesn’t work out.”

Caine pulled away far enough so we could look into each other’s eyes. “I know. I’ve been thinking about that, too. All I know is I truly love you, and I no longer see you as just a friend. I want more.” He paused to take a sip of his wine. “I see a future for us. I want a future for us.”

I felt my heart flutter and could barely get the words to form. “I want that, too.”

Caine smiled. “Remember when I told you I have traditional and not so traditional thoughts on love?” He paused and watched me nod. “I need to know if you can accept my beliefs. Is this a type of relationship you can embrace?”

I took a large sip of my wine to clear the lump that was forming in my throat. I knew this topic was bound to come up. I wanted to give Caine whatever he wanted. I wanted to be the woman he desired. But I was completely naïve when it came to this. I had never heard of this lifestyle before. All I knew was that I trusted Caine. I wanted a relationship with him that would last a lifetime. But I was embarrassed with my lack of knowledge and comfort with the idea.

“Yes…I mean…I don’t really know what that means. Do I have to cook and clean and serve you? Do I have to call you sir? I just don’t really…”

Caine put down his and my wine and reached for my hands. “No, you don’t have to do any of that. We are, and always will be equals. We are a team to make decisions together. I will never treat you lesser or treat you with anything but with respect and love. I will always cherish you and take care of you.” He leaned in and placed a gentle kiss on my lips. “But at the end of the day, I am the Head of the Household. The ultimate responsibility is placed on my shoulders, and I would expect you to honor and obey what I say. I would expect you to trust me and to trust what I ask of you.”

That definitely seemed simple enough to me. I already saw Caine as the leader. It was something I always found very attractive. And truth be told, I loved the feeling of being taken care of by him. Plus, I found out years ago, that fighting with Caine was useless. So it seemed to me the only part of this lifestyle I didn’t understand was the discipline part.

“So you said you want Domestic Discipline. Does that mean you’re going to spank me?” I asked. I could feel my face turning red. I couldn’t believe I was being so blunt, but I loved Caine and really wanted this to work, so I needed to be open and up front. No walls.

Caine reached for our wine glasses and handed mine back as he took another sip. “Yes.” He paused to see how I would react to the answer. When I simply took a drink of my wine, he continued, “I will if I feel it’s needed, and I would expect you to let me.”

I slowly nodded. “When would you feel it would be needed?” I wasn’t sure what would make him want to spank me, and I definitely wanted to know.

Caine grew serious. “Last night would have earned you one.” He paused a moment and softened his voice. “If you put yourself in danger, or if you do something I disapprove of. I will also spank you if I feel you need to be reminded of who is the Head of the Household. I want you to be the wonderful, perfect woman that you are, and a spanking may occur to guarantee you don’t become anything but.”

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