Page 54 of My Monster, My Choice

He gives it all to me and at the same time pinches my nipples. His tentacles are pulsing as they slide deep and all at once there’s too much sensation.

“Oh, holy hell,” I keen, and topple over the edge. The rippling starts immediately, and he growls as my pussy grips his cock in the throes of my climax. My orgasm quakes; it thunders throughout my body and I cry out as everything tightens around him.

I can feel him come, ejaculating his seed, giving me everything, so messy and wonderful, and he fills me until I overflow. Warmth dribbling down my thighs, bathing us both. His tentacle slowly pulls from me, and he turns us both onto our sides, still joined by his cock. His arm is under my head, and we stare into each other’s eyes.

“I will always love you,” he says. “You don’t have to feel the same. You don’t ever have to be more than what we have right here, right now. I just want you to know.” When he leans down to kiss me softly, I want to say it so bad. I don’t want to disappoint him. I don’t want him to think he’s unloved. We usually sayI love youin front of other people, like it’s a show for their benefit.

When his cock slips from me, he pulls me close, wrapping me in his arms. As his breathing going rhythmically deep, and I know he’s asleep, I finally whisper, “I love you too.”

ChapterTwenty

CHRISTINA

“You never told me what life was like before you married father,” Tera says. “Though, I’m glad you got to experience life before him and after him. You’re beautiful and so wickedly strong. Now that I’m an adult, it makes me realize how young you were when you went through all that.”

We’re sitting in the yard, sharing the giant porch swing Elex and Relion built when I mentioned we had one at our old house. I’ve got sweet Jayna sleeping in my arms and Tera’s feeding Telilah. From where we sit, we can watch Kenny on the playground with Sammy and Susie.

Most of the Adroki and Anya left early this morning to meet with members of smaller communities, which is how I got Jayna for the day. Now that Lilaina is in charge, she’s decided the best course of action is to dispel the humans’ fears of the Adroki who live in Eden by getting people used to their looks. Several of their people from other clans still wish to find human mates. It’s a sound plan. I know I fell in love with Elex once I got used to his looks. I know Tera did with Relion. As did Anya with Jaire, whose sleeping baby I’m holding in my arms.

Telilah is lazily nursing from Tera’s breast, staring up at her mother adoringly. The sight of my baby feeding her own baby leaves me all warm and bubbly inside. How I wish I’d had the chance to experience that bonding between a mother and her infant, but it just wasn’t meant to be for me.

“You know I fell in love with the boy next door? Carlton Faillion. We were inseparable since I was five. Everyone knew we’d wind up together. Would marry.”

“I’m sorry he died before you could,” Tera murmurs. That part of the story she knows. She’s an adult now. I wonder if I should share with her the rest.

All except for my reason for keeping Elex at bay. The fact that I can no longer have any.

“When Carlton died, I was pregnant.”

Tera’s gasp startles Telilah, who gives a sharp cry of protest at her mother’s movement, and then curls her tiny fist against Tera’s breast and continues to suckle.

“Oh, my god, mom. What happened? Did you lose it?”

“No,” I say softly. “It was aborted.”

Shocked silence fills the air.

“I’m so sorry,” Tera says at last. “I know what an awful decision that must have been. You were all alone, grieving, shamed. I wish I’d have been there for you.”

Her hand reaches out for mine and I grip it for a minute, then bring it up to kiss. I appreciate that she supports me through the decision. “Thank you. And it probably was a choice I would have made, for those very reasons you stated. But I couldn’t come to grips with the loss—with the choice—because I didn’t get to make it.”

“What do you mean?”

“The choice was made for me. By my father and Carlton’s.”

“They forced you to have an abortion?”

I nod. “And it wasn’t legal. They shipped me off to a man to have it done and”—this is the part I can’t tell her, the fact that I lost my uterus because of that route to keep it under the table— “well, I almost died. I was hospitalized and they were afraid the scandal would come out. Both men would be jailed. So, Carlton’s father asked your father to marry me. That my depression was because I’d suffered an accident. Cover up what really happened, basically.”

“That’s why you were so young,” Tera whispers. “My father was your father’s age.”

I nod. “Which is why I didn’t want you to enter the marriage mart instead of being matched to the Adroki. I knew what was in store for you.”

She squeezes my hand as we continue to rock. “I’m glad you convinced me to mate with Ree,” she says. “I loved him even then, although I was angry with him tricking me. And of course, I was already carrying this little one.” She smiles down at Telilah, who grins, loses the nipple, finds it, and then resumes feeding.

“When are you going to wean her?” I ask.

“Soon. She’s already lost interest in feeding and wants more table food. But I miss it. I want to have another. I’m going to check with Calbin when he arrives to see when I ovulate next, if you’d like to come.”

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