Page 101 of True Luna: The Unknown Magic

“Calm down, Fia,” Lex sighed. “You are driving me crazy.”

I ignored him completely. I couldn't stop pacing around. My magic would come out if I did. I had to keep moving.

“Goddess, Fia, what’s wrong with you?” Lex asked me.

I ignored him again.

I could feel my heartbeat in my throat. I tried to swallow, but I couldn't. My lungs started to hurt. I couldn't get enough air into my lungs.

I was a dark and dangerous creature. What if his family didn’t accept me? What if they feared me? What if Hunter started to fear me too?

I could feel tears in the corners of my eyes.

He would end up rejecting me, wouldn't he? He would tell me that he changed his mind and that he couldn't be with me. He would tell me that I was too dangerous and unpredictable.

Would he find another mate? He would. Of course he would. He would find another mate. He would mark her and she would be his Luna.

I could feel the darkness spreading around my heart. It was cold and it hurt. My chest hurt.

Someone grabbed my shoulders.

“Holy fuck, Fia, what’s wrong?” Lex asked, getting into my face.

He studied my face worriedly.

“Are you in pain again?” he asked, squeezing my shoulders tightly. “What the hell is going on?”

I nodded because I couldn't speak.

I was in pain. The darkness reached my stomach and I wanted to scream.

“Fuck,” Lex mumbled as he wrapped his arms around me.

I leaned into him. I was tired. I couldn't even stand on my feet anymore.

“Try to take a deep breath, Fia,” Lex said softly as he kissed the top of my head. “Focus on my arms around you. Focus on the warmth, okay? Try to find the light.”

I closed my eyes and tried to do what he told me. We’ve done this so many times before. I already knew what I needed to do, but I still needed his soothing voice to guide me through.

“Where is the darkness, Fia?” Lex asked softly as he rubbed my back.

“My chest,” I managed to mumble quietly.

“Okay,” Lex mumbled as he continued to rub my back gently. “Focus on me, Fia. Push it back. You can do it.”

I could hear footsteps behind me, but I couldn't turn around. I knew it was my parents.

I forced myself to stop thinking about how cold my chest felt. I forced myself to focus on my brother. I focused on his arms around me. I focused on his steady breathing. I could hear his heartbeat as well. It was much steadier than mine. It was much slower than mine. I gritted my teeth and counted his heartbeats.

One.

I focused on the edges of the darkness in my chest. It spread. It was now cowering my whole upper body.

Two.

I started with my throat. I pushed it down a little so I could breathe.

Three.

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