Page 76 of Powerless
Droplets of water hug his skin in a way that makes me irrationally jealous. Then he reaches for a towel, and I see it again.
The tattoo.
“I came in here because I wanted to see that.” One shaky hand points at his rib cage.
He towels himself off. “You wanted to watch me fuck my hand while I pretended it was you in those tiny shorts? That’s why you barged in here?”
My core clenches and goose bumps break out along the back of my neck, cool sweat on my temples. I swallow and push ahead. “I’m talking about the tattoo, Jas.”
He glances up now, seeing where I’m pointing, and lifts his left arm. I get a full view of the tiny ballerina inked on his skin. It looks like the ones inside a jewelry box I’d been thinking about earlier.
“Oh.” He sighs. “That.”
“Yeah. That.”
Jasper drops the towel and closes the space between us, stark naked and confident, cock still full, looking fucking delicious. He puts one hand on each of my knees and pries them open. Keeping my legs clamped together was dulling the ache in my core, and I whimper before biting down on my bottom lip to shut myself up. I’m soaked and I’m sure he knows it.
He steps between my spread legs like he knows he belongs there and lifts his left arm to give me a close-up view of the tattoo.
She’s dainty and has a serene, doll-like expression on her face, hands held up in perfect pirouette position. The ribbons from her pointe shoes wrap around her ankles as she spins, and little dots texture the lace of her tutu.
I reach out and trail the tips of my fingers over the inked tulle as if the texture might be real. But all I’m met with is smooth skin, firm muscle, and a sharp intake of breath from the beautiful man who stands before me. Jasper watches my fingers as I slide them over every detail of the small ballerina tucked safely under his arm.
“What . . .” I shake my head, trying to put my words together in coherent order. “What is this?”
“I thought it would look familiar to you,” he quips, just letting me soak it in as his hips bump against the inside of my thighs. His thick cock so damn close.
My head tilts and I peek up at him. “Why?”
He knows I mean why does he have a ballerina inked on him when the rest are patterns—scales, lines, and geometric shapes that remind me of a kaleidoscope.
His Adam’s apple bobs. “Because I missed your first professional dance.” He clears his throat, staring at my hands and avoiding my eyes. “I wanted to be there so badly after all the times you’d been there for me, so I went and did something that night to commemorate it in my own way.”
I blink my lashes rapidly to clear my eyes. “You said you were reviewing game tape.”
His right hand squeezes my knee and slides up my thigh, fingers sneaking under the hemline of my shorts, dusting up further than ever before. “You really think I’d miss your big night to review game tape?”
“I . . .” I trail off because, no. If I really think about it, I know he wouldn’t. He’s always been there for me, and that night was an outlier. Looking back, it doesn’t make sense for him to miss it at all. “But you’ve come since then.”
“I started coming when I figured your dad wouldn’t be there to catch me. Your debut night was too risky. I saw the show though. I came a few weeks into the run and sat in the nosebleeds by myself.”
I flatten my palm on his ribs and turn my face up to his, his breath fanning out across my wet lips. “Why?”
His pupils shift between my eyes before he sighs and says, “It took me a while to figure that out. Years, in fact, to sort through my feelings, to make sense of them, figure out where they came from and where they were going. I thought you were just a friend. But him telling me to stay away? Him telling me I couldn’t have you? It broke something inside me. Telling me I wasn’t good enough for you? All that did was make me want to be good enough for you.”
I groan. “You have always been good enough for me.”
He grips my chin and regards me carefully under the bright lights. “I never felt like I was. But I do now.”
My head swims with his admission. Excitement quarrels with frustration. Desire wars with self-preservation.
“I need a minute,” is what I come back with as I gently push him away.
And walk out of the bathroom.
After years of longing for Jasper Gervais, I’m in shock. And I can’t think straight with his naked body against me.
I feel wrung out. I feel sad. I feel angry.
