Page 5 of Fighting Temptation (Men of Honor 1)
It was a complete shock to my system… Julia was not ‘hot’, she was fucking beautiful.
Her innocent gaze held me captive. Her eyes, an exotic blue-green color that hid behind long dark lashes, shone of beauty and innocence. Right there I knew this girl was not for me but I couldn’t stop myself from taking in the rest of her. She had long brown hair that fell past her bare shoulders and laid against the best looking tits I’d ever seen; and I’ve seen a lot. Her short yellow sun dress enhanced her smooth olive skin, and although there was nothing skimpy or revealing about her dress it still gave you a glimpse of a small lithe body, a body that was meant to be wrapped around a guy.
She had stared back at me with appreciation, something that I was used to getting. Yet she caused a strange sensation in my chest- something I’d never felt before and I fucking hated it. I learned at a young age that feelings and emotions were dangerous, they only made you weak.
So I gave myself a mental slap and acknowledged her appreciation with a cocky smirk, which completely embarrassed her. When Melissa got on the back of my bike I took off and fucked her all night, trying to get the new girl out of my head… it didn’t work.
Two weeks later I walked out of Big Mike’s gym and heard a terrified scream from the graveyard across the street. A white hot rage constricts my chest, like always when I think about those fucking perverts on top of her, holding her down. Little did I know that night would change my life forever. The girl I had tried so hard to forget, the one I tried to stay away from, became my best friend. I knew she would be better off without me but I couldn’t stop myself from getting to know her. She was different from anyone I’d ever met. I never thought someone so good and genuine existed until her. The more I saw of her the more I became addicted to her. Every time I was around her she would destroy some of the darkness that lurked inside of me. She made the bad shit in my life seem not so terrible. Then, before I knew it, I had fallen for a girl from another world.
As much as I wanted her, and god did I ever fucking want her, I tamped down my feelings and kept my dick in my pants, because I knew I’d never be good enough for her. Unfortunately my father’s blood runs in me and I will not taint her. She deserves everything good, everything that I’m not. Even though I didn’t ever plan to take her I made sure no one else could have her either. I know it was an asshole move, but the thought of her with someone else rips my fucking guts out. So, without her knowledge, I laid claim. I warned every fucking guy to stay away from her, and they all did, because they knew not to fuck with me.
As much as I’m going to miss her, it’s a good thing I’m leaving. I’m finding everyday harder and harder to hold onto my control when I’m around her.
I pull up to the apartment I share with Cooper and feel relief when I don’t see Kayla’s car here. Not that I don’t like her, because I do. But tonight of all nights I don’t feel like hearing the bed pound against the wall from the two of them screwing each other senseless. I let myself into the apartment and see Cooper sitting on the couch, having a beer and watching TV.
He looks up at me with a stupid grin, “Hey Seal Boy.”
Crossing my arms I lean against the counter and glare at him. “Not yet, but when I do pass I’ll put your rookie ass to shame,” I say with a smirk.
He’s gotten so cocky since he finished at the police academy a year ago. Graduated top of the class as he always reminds everyone. He wants to be the sheriff and knows the one we have now will be retiring in a few years. Coop has always been a pretty tough guy, he can hold his own. We spar at the gym some days till we’re almost puking. He’s a good guy and will make a good sheriff one day. If it wasn’t for him and his parents I’m not sure where I’d be.
“No Kayla tonight?”
“No, not tonight. I told her I would meet up with her tomorrow. Figured you might need a beer, or 4. And you better realize how lucky you are that I did this. Because when she finds out I knew about you leaving and never told her, she’s going to give me serious shit.”
I grunt, “Ya well, no need to keep it a secret anymore.” I grab a beer and sit in the chair on the other side of the room.
“So how did Jules take it?”
“Pretty much what I expected. She was hurt and pissed when she found out how long I had been planning it. She’s still talking to me though.” I feel uncomfortable confessing this to Coop, but I continue: “I didn’t want to lose her over this.”
“Did you really think she would stop talking to you over this? This is Julia we’re talking about. That girl is as forgiving as they come.”
He’s right, she is, but I also know what it’s like to have the people that you’d least expect abandon you. But she isn’t one of them and I should have known that. “I need you to keep your promise to me and watch out for her, take care of her. I mean it Coop, if something happens to her because I wasn’t here I will never forgive myself.”
His expression turns serious, “Have I ever broken a promise to you? I told you I’ll watch out for her and I will. Although, I can’t promise you I can control her dating life,” he adds with a smirk.
