Page 53 of Fighting Temptation (Men of Honor 1)
He groans, his face savage, “Go to the bathroom and get decent; it’s Cooper.” With that he turns and walks away to answer the door.
I get up and right my shirt then shakily I hurry into the bathroom, my legs feeling like jello from the intense orgasm that just crashed through me. I splash water on my face to try and rid the flushed skin tone. I hear Jaxson and Cooper talking from the kitchen… Hearing Cooper’s voice makes me remember Kayla and I start to feel angry. I take a deep breath to try and tamp it down, not wanting to give anything away.
Exiting the bathroom I walk into the kitchen. Jaxson’s lust filled expression has disappeared, in its place is frustration and anger. Cooper turns and has the same look, but he also has a hard time looking me in the eye… I’m assuming he can guess what Jaxson and I were up to.
“Hi Julia.”
“Cooper,” I say in acknowledgement. I must have let the anger I’m feeling creep into my voice because both he and Jaxson look at me now in confusion.
Cooper clears his throat, “Uh I wanted to come by and let you know that I served Jennings the restraining order today and I also laid into him about coming over here last night. He shouldn’t be bothering you again.”
I let out a breath, feeling bad for being rude to him, “Thank you,” I say a little more softer this time.
He nods his head, “Also, I found out it was Jenny who told him about the restraining order. I fired her this morning.”
“You didn’t have to do that,” I say feeling guilty, even though I know I shouldn’t.
Jaxson grunts, “The bitch is lucky that’s all she got.”
“If you see Wyatt anywhere I want you to call me right away. If by chance he shows up at the same place as you he has to leave immediately, not the other way around.”
“Ok,” I say feeling guilty again, which is so stupid because I know he deserves this. “He must have been pretty mad huh?” I ask chewing my nail nervously.
Cooper shrugs, “Ya and also surprised. I think he was hoping he scared you enough yesterday to drop it. I’m glad you didn’t, he knows now that you’re serious so I do believe he will leave you alone. Either way I think it’s good Jaxson stays here for a while with you.”
I look over at Jaxson, his expression is completely void of any emotion and I know right away we won’t be picking up where we left off, much to my disappointment.
“Anyways I better get back, but I wanted to come by and tell you in person, that it has been taken care of.”
I narrow my gaze at him, “Where are you going?” I don’t mean for it to come out so suspicious but it does.
“Uh back to work.”
“You sure about that?” Ugh shut up Julia!
Cooper looks at me like I’ve lost my mind, I can also tell he’s annoyed with my question. “Yes I’m sure, why?”
I shrug, “Just curious. Thanks for stopping by.” I walk over to the sink and get a glass of water for myself. Out of the corner of my eye I see Cooper look over at Jaxson, asking silently if he knows what’s going on. Jaxson shrugs, letting him know he has no idea.
Damn, I hope I didn’t ruin anything and he figured us out. Coop shakes his head and mumbles a goodbye then he’s out the door. I feel Jaxson staring at me but I ignore it and pay close attention to the glass of water in my hand.
“What was that all about?”
“What?” I feign ignorance.
“Your suspicious questions, that’s what?”
“I just wondered if he was going back to work.”
“Where else would he be going?”
“I don’t know Jaxson, do you?” Shit! Now I’m accusing him too.
“What the fuck is with you?”
I let out a deep breath, “Sorry, never mind… forget I said anything.”
I decide to change the subject to another topic, but not any less uncomfortable, “So are we going to talk about what just happened?”
He shrugs, “Nothing much to say, heat of the moment, we got wrapped up in our emotions.”
“Really Jaxson, that’s how we’re going to play this?”
“What do you want me to say Julia? I don’t know what the hell to do. Do I want to fuck your brains out? Ya I do, but what do we do after that?”
“Why do we have to decide? Why can’t we just see where it goes?”
“Jesus Julia, I don’t know how to do that, I’ve never had a fucking girlfriend before. You know that.”
I roll my eyes, “Well it’s quite easy Jaxson, see it would be exactly what we are now except we get to have sex, lots of sex. Sounds like a damn good deal to me.”
He doesn’t smile like I hope for him to.
“And what do we do when our time is up? Because once we change our relationship, there’s no going back to just being friends.”
“Why do we have to have a time limit?”
“Because Julia, one day you’re going to want to get married and have kids, something I never ever plan to have.”
My stomach sinks when he says this and my heart twists with pain, “Ya well, as much as I really want kids one day Jaxson, it’s never going to happen because I can’t have children.” The words are raw and painful when they come out.
“What the hell are you talking about you can’t have kids?”
I swallow thickly and look away when I explain, “I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. I found out after I came back from your graduation. I had a physical with my doctor after we… well you know, and it came up. I don’t ovulate because I don’t have menstrual cycles often like I should. It’s why I am on the pill. The doctor told me my chances of ever having children are slim to none.”
“Shit!” Jaxson walks over and hugs me now, “I’m sorry Julia, you would make a good mom.”
