Page 93 of Fighting Temptation (Men of Honor 1)
Emotion clogs my throat, “Me too.”
And I was. For as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to be a mother and when I thought it would never happen for me it broke my heart. Finding out I am going to have the baby I’ve always wanted, but also for it to be Jaxson’s…
Oh god, Jaxson.
I walk into Big Mike’s Gym to meet up with Cade and Sawyer. We set up a meeting with Mike to talk business. The more I’ve thought about buying into this gym the more I want to do it. Sawyer, Cade and I have come up with some pretty cool shit that we want to do with the place.
And if I was being honest I liked the idea they were going to be sticking around. Ya Sawyer can drive me fucking nuts, especially when he’s fucking with me about Julia. But other than Cooper, these guys are like the brothers I never had. We have been to hell and back together, literally…
“Hey man, where’s Julia?” Sawyer asks cutting my thoughts off. He and Cade walk over from the sparring ring.
“She has a doctor’s appointment then she’s meeting with Kayla to talk wedding shit. Cooper said he would bring her home after.”
“How’s she doing?” Cade asks.
I shrug, “Better I guess. She found out the other day she got the job she’s been wanting at the elementary school so that’s seemed to bring her spirits up.”
“So are we going to deal with the fucker or what?” Sawyer asks seriously.
I let out a breath and run my hands through my hair, “Ya, we are. I just need to decide how I want to handle him. I don’t want to make shit hard for Coop.”
“Just let us know when you have it figured out,” Cade says.
I nod, “I will.”
Big Mike sticks his head out of his office with a big grin, “Come on in boys, let’s talk business.”
Two hours later, agreements were made and things were set in motion for us to take over the gym. Normally the thought of a commitment like this would have me freaking the fuck out, but it actually feels good, real good. And I can’t wait to see Julia’s face when I tell her.
Anxiety has my heart racing the whole drive home.
“Everything alright Julia? You seem quiet,” Copper asks glancing at me in concern.
Kayla looks over at me sympathetically. I wanted to tell Jaxson before anyone else but Kayla knew right away something was wrong. So I cracked and told her; I’m thankful I did. She was extremely happy for me, and shared in my excitement but I know she’s also nervous about Jaxson’s reaction.
I paste a big fake smile on my face, “Ya I’m fine. I’m just tired is all,” I can tell Coop doesn’t believe me but thankfully he lets it go.
Kayla reaches over inconspicuously grabbing my hand and gives it a gentle squeeze. I let out a heavy breath and give her a small smile. Maybe I’m worrying over nothing. I know Jaxson said having kids was something he never wanted, but a lot has changed since then. And there’s been a new peace over us since that night after his nightmare, the night he finally opened up to me. He told me he wanted me forever, surely that has to mean something?
My thoughts get cut off abruptly when Cooper pulls into my driveway. “Thanks for the ride Cooper.”
“No problem.”
I turn to Kayla and give her a hug, “I’ll see you tomorrow morning, I can’t wait to go dress shopping.”
“Me too,” she says brightly, then she lowers her voice, “call me if you need me.”
I nod and give her a small smile. As soon as I get out of the truck Jaxson walks out of the house to greet me. He waves at Coop as he pulls away.
“Hey beautiful,” he pulls me against him, my arms go around his neck and his hands go to my ass. His scent envelopes me and my anxiety eases when he gives me the most delicious kiss.
I moan, “Well hello to you too,” I whisper against his lips.
“How was your appointment? What did the doctor say?”
And there it is, my anxiety back full force. Jaxson picks up on it immediately, “Jules, baby, everything okay?”
I take a deep breath and nod my head, “Ya but can we go inside and talk?”
He nods, his expression getting more concerned by the second. I grab his hand and walk into the house, leading him to the couch in the living room. My heart is pounding so loudly I’m sure Jaxson can hear it too. I sit next to him and turn to face him. My knee is bouncing wildly up and down from nerves. Jaxson pulls my hand away from my mouth and I realize I’m chewing my nails.
“Jules, you’re freaking me the fuck out. What’s going on? Did the doctor give you bad news? Are you sick?”
I shake my head, and let out a deep breath, “Umm no it’s nothing like that. Um, well, umm,” I let out another heavy breath, “I’m pregnant.”
Jaxson doesn’t move, doesn’t even blink. He just stares at me, his eyes going flat.
Uh oh.
“What did you just say?” he chokes out.
“I’m pregnant,” I whisper nervously.
He shoots off the couch and starts pacing frantically, running his hand through his hair repeatedly. “How the fuck did this happen?”
I assume that was a rhetorical question, so I don’t answer.
“I thought you couldn’t get pregnant?”
“I did too. It turns out that my case is very unusual, but it has happened and I’m one of the lucky ones.”
He stops pacing and stares at me in shock and outrage, “Lucky!? Julia, there’s nothing fucking lucky about this. Fuck!” he screams and storms into the kitchen.
I get up and follow after him. His arms are braced on the counter, head down, his body vibrating with… well I’m not sure what. Anger? Fear? Probably both.
I walk up and lay my hand on his back, “I know this is a shock Jax, it was for me too, but everything will be okay. You’ll see.”
