Page 4 of Hopeless
I’m sick of people talking to me, but it strikes me that listening to Bailey talk might not be so bad.
The first sip of my beer goes down cold and refreshing. And I sigh as it does, feeling a weight come off my shoulders in the presence of the town drunk and the town pariah.
I recognize them as kindred spirits now, a misfit in my own home.
“Third-degree burns on my feet,” I announce, since bluntness seems to be the theme here today. “Skin grafts.”
“S’okay. You can find some girl with a weird foot fetish who will love that shit.”
Bailey props her hands on the edge of the bar and drops her head with a groan. “Jesus Christ, Gary. No more booze.”
“So long as your dick is okay.” He waves his hand up and down my body. “Face seems fine, wouldn’t you say, Bails? You’ll be alright, kid. You’ll find someone to love ya.”
Even drunk, Gary stumbled into a sore spot. I’ve never considered myself to be vain or obsessed with my appearance. I haven’t needed to be. Good genes and having to stay fit for my job have served me well.
Who’d have thought scarred feet would be the thing to skewer my confidence? Fuckingfeet. Like they even matter. It could have been so much worse. I should feel grateful. And yet …
Bailey’s gaze wanders over my features. And mine does the same with hers. Where the light touches it, her dark hair has a mahogany-like shine. It’s silky and smooth, falling in layers from her long bangs at her chin to her shoulder and then further down her back. It doesn’t look like Bailey cuts her hair often either. I’m drawn back to lashes so thick and black they remind me of one of those vintage dolls. She’s not wearing a stitch of makeup, revealing a light smattering of freckles on her nose.
A warm blush paints her cheeks when she softly replies, “Yeah,” and then blinks away.
Her eyes, that one little word—it … makes my blood pump faster.
It makes me feel something in a sea of numbness.
My throat bobs as I swallow the dryness in my mouth, trying to push the moment away. Maybe I’m not ready to feel anything after all.
I take another sip and wonder if maybe I’ll be able to sleep for more than a few hours tonight if I toss back a couple of pints.
Then I take another sip and swipe a hand over my stubbled chin before I turn to Gary. “Love is the last thing I need. But this beer is hitting the spot. Thanks, Gary.”
Talking to him seems safe enough. Safer than talking to Bailey Jansen, who watches me just a little too closely with those big fucking doe eyes.
2
Bailey
It’s been two weeks since Beau Eaton snuck into my bar in the middle of the day. Two weeks since I took one look at him and almost dropped the glass in my hand. He’s hard to miss with his broad shoulders and tall, well-built frame, and long legs that have him a head above most men who walk through that door. Light brown hair, a little too long, flops over his forehead, the perfect frame for silver-gray eyes. Even slightly unkempt the way he is right now, Beau Eaton is fucking hot. Totally intimidating.
And hot is one thing, but Beau is nice too. And funny.
A true triple threat—or at least he was.
He’s never treated me like I’m wearing a scarlet letter on my chest, even when others have. I only know him from the bar, but he’s never held my family’s reputation against me. He’s always offered kind words, a polite touch on my elbow, and a generous tip at the end of the night.
But he’s still the town prince, and I’m still the town trash.
He’s the hero, and I’m the bartender.
He’s an Eaton, and I’m a Jansen.
And yet, he’s here every damn day since the afternoon he walked in looking like a caged animal who broke free.
Here every damn day drinking with fucking Gary.
The first day started out sweet enough. He was endearing, if I’m being honest. But for the past two weeks, his presence has slowly morphed from light to dark, gathering itself into an ominous storm cloud.
It’s getting to where he’s making everyone around him uncomfortable. You can sense the electricity in the air, like lightning ready to strike.
