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My perfect dirty girl.I ran my hand up the side of her torso. I swear it felt like her warmth was seeping back into my cold soul. I felt lighter than I had in weeks. And I was never letting go. I intertwined my fingers with hers, lifted her hands above her head, and pinned them against the floor. I moved my hips faster and her legs wrapped tighter around my waist.

"Promise that you'll remember that you're mine,” I said.

"I promise," she moaned as her pussy clenched around me.

I squeezed her hands as I emptied every last drop of my cum inside of her. Right where it belonged. I stared down at her as I tried to catch my breath. I rubbed the tip of my nose down the length of hers and gave her another kiss.

I had her back.Finally.My thoughts immediately stopped.

I didn’t have her back.

I hadn’t told her what I’d done. Or…hadn’t done.

Fuck.I pulled out of her and stood up. I grabbed my sweatpants off the floor and pulled them on as I stared down at her naked on my floor. And I kept staring. Because I wanted to imprint this in my mind. If I was lucky, the cameras Ian had installed in my apartment had captured the perfect angle of her. Just in case I had to play this scene on repeat while I was alone again.

Because I’d told Penny we were on a break. I’d been adamant about that. About how she shouldn’t have slept with Tyler because we were technically still together.

And I’d done worse. I’d slept with the devil.

Chapter 11

Saturday

Penny was never going to forgive me. I didn’t even forgive me. I didn’t want it to be true, but I couldn’t change what had happened.Or hadn’t happened. Fuck.

I cleared my throat. The only move I had was to at least cushion the blow. “I have a present for you."

She sat up. "So you did remember my birthday?"

"I told you I remembered." I forced a smile onto my face. But it felt more like a grimace. I turned away so she couldn’t see my face, and walked out of the kitchen. When I reached my office I took a deep breath.

How was I going to explain what happened? I pictured Dr. Clark’s face when I told him that I’d slept with Isabella. He was just…confused.

Penny would be confused too. And angry. And hurt.

I looked out the window at Main Street below. Why couldn’t I remember? How had I let this happen? Isabella’s words echoed around in my head.Rape.I raked my fingers through my hair. Just thinking about it made me feel out of control. And when I felt out of control…I slipped.

Breathe.

I wanted to believe that nothing happened, but I’d never know. All I had was a blank memory. But Isabella has her version of events. And she’d tell them to Penny no matter what I said. If there was one thing I believed, it was a threat made by Isabella.

Breathe.

Penny slept with Tyler. She’d have to understand. She had to. But she thought we’d broken up. Me on the other hand? I knew better. And it didn’t matter that I didn’t mean for it to happen. It didn’t matter that I didn’t want it.

Breathe.

My heart was beating funny in my chest. Penny was the best person to calm me down. All I wanted was to curl up with her in bed and sleep the rest of the day away.

But if I didn’t get this off my chest now, I knew I never would.

I grabbed the envelope off my desk and walked back down the hall and into the living room. Penny was no longer in the kitchen. For a second I thought maybe she’d run off again, but then I heard her in my bedroom. She was probably just putting on some clothes.

I sat down on the couch and stared at the worn envelope in my hands. I’d tried so many times to rip it in half. I’d tried so hard to keep my distance.

Penny walked out of my bedroom fully dressed. She was even wearing a jacket and sneakers. Like she was getting ready to walk away. She was beautiful, but she was definitely a flight risk.

Breathe.

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