Page 41 of Tiebreaker

He shakes his head, not understanding

"How is fucking somebody an accident?" he asks.

"I didn't know it was going to happen?" I say.

I'm so tired. I roll over and close my eyes letting in a slow breath. God, I've had more sex in the last week than I've had in the last five years of my life. I feel him lifting the sheet over my body and he presses a kiss to the side of my head.

"You're going to sleep?" he asks.

"Mhmm," I say.

"Yeah, that's right. You sleep," he says. "Don't worry about it."

I'm going to ask him don't worry about what, but sleep steals me away.

Sixteen

Olivia

I wakeup in a strange bed and stretch before sitting up sharply. Toby, I forgot to feed him last night. I look around the room. It's dark, but the doors open and crack to some brightness out in the hall. My clothes are on the floor and I pull them on. My mouth feels like something died in it and my hair is a rat's nest of tangles and curls. I wish I had an elastic band to just put it up in a bun. The bed's empty. Vince is already somewhere else. But I don't smell coffee being made or any kind of breakfast being cooked. He's probably not that kind of guy. I don't know what kind of guy he really is but anyway, I go out into the hallway searching for signs of life and stop short when I hear two men's voices speaking. It's Kai and Vince having an argument in the hallway. I press up against the wall and stop breathing. They're talking about me.

"Who the fuck do you think you are?" Kai is saying.

"That's a better question for you," Vince says sounding angry. "She told me about the first night you guys met."

Kai makes a noise like he's surprised.

"She told you about that?" He asks.

"Not such a fucking good guy now. What kind of white knight are you raping a girl?"

Kai makes a splatter of anger, sounding flustered and my hand flies to my mouth covering it in shock. I had no idea Vince would guess that from the little I told him last night. Obviously he went there and I had no idea he was going to confront Kai about it or how they even started talking about me.

"I didn't rape her, he says some sounding indignant. "Is that what she said? She's accusing me of raping her?"

I should race out there to correct the situation, to tell them exactly what I did mean last night when I spoke to Vince, when I was exhausted, and sleep deprived and to tell Kai the truth, that he had no idea I wasn't there because I was being paid to be there. I was just a fan going to a meet and greet and he accidentally, unknowingly had sex with me without my consent. If I have to be honest, I didn't stay non consenting for long and it's still one of the hottest moments I've ever had sexually in my life. That says something about me I guess, that I'm wrong or fucked in the head.

"You know, I knew you were pretty messed up," Kai says. "But I didn't think that you would somehow get her convinced that I'd hurt her. Unlike you, I've never done anything without someone's consent and I've never hurt anybody in the pursuit of my goals."

Kai sounds furious. His voice dripping with contempt.

"Whatever shit you pulled with her, I'm never going to forgive you for just like I can't forgive you for my brother either."

There's a little creaking noise and movement to my left. A door opens and I see a sliver of light fall on the carpet. A girl stands there. She's about 15 and I recognize her. She was the one with Vince in the alley. The one that passed me his leather jacket. Her eyes are wide as she looks at me. What is she doing here? If I remember it correctly, Vince was pimping that night, offered me protection. I'm assuming if I'd taken it, he would have whoredme out. Was he doing the same with this girl? A feeling of broken horrifying panic fills me. I somehow aligned myself with a monster. The voices in the hallway have risen and Kai shouting at Vince, with Vince telling him to get the fuck out. The girl slips past me and turns the corner.

"And who the fuck is this?" Kai asked. "Do you have some kind of daughter we don't know about?"

Vince tells him to get the fuck out and Kai says with his pleasure. The front door slams and it rocks the whole apartment. The air shuttering with the impact.

"Go make some coffee Chrissy," Vince says sounding tired. "I need to get her up."

"She's already up," Chrissy says.

"Right," Vince replies and then comes around the corner glaring at me. "How long were you hanging out there eavesdropping?" He asks.

"It's not like I needed to try very hard. You guys were audible from the bedroom."

I cross my arms over my chest.

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