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He jerks up onto one elbow, eyes scanning my face. “What do you mean?”
I motion vaguely between us. “That.”
“I’m gonna need you to say it clearly, baby,” he says gently. “Because maybe I’m being dumb here.”
“I’m… Iwasa virgin.”
TO BOTSWANA AND TOMORROWS
WEEK 7
FORTY-ONE
A virgin?That was her first time? And she didn’t tell me?
This can’t be right. Maybe I misunderstood.
I know how high Mia keeps her walls. I’ve seen how carefully she guards herself, but this? After everything we’ve shared? After the way she told me she wanted this, wantedus? Surely she should’ve told me something like this. Should’ve trusted me.
“Wait, what?”
“That was my first time having sex,” she says plainly. “But I’ve done all the other stuff.”
She says it so matter-of-factly, like it doesn’t warrant a second thought. Like losing her virginity isn’t something to write home about.
Okay, bad analogy, but still.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” I ask, my voice low.
She shifts beside me, wriggling like she can’t get comfortable but refusing to meet my eyes. “It didn’t come up?”
“You don’t think… I don’t know? Maybe you should’ve brought it up?”
“It’s not a big deal.”
“It’s not?” Some of my feelings drip into my tone, and it’s sharper than I intended.
She pulls herself upright, leaning her back against the headboard, arms crossed tight over her chest. Pulling away from me even though we’re inches apart. “It’s just sex.”
The irony almost makes me laugh. How many times have I said those exact words?
Only for one night. I’m not looking for anything serious.
It’s just sex.
And now here I am. The woman I’ve fallen for throwing it back in my face.
Is this some kind of sick karma?
I take a breath, trying to slow my thoughts. This is Mia. This is different. She didn’t mean it like that.
“Is that really all it was?—”
“No, of course not!” she interrupts. “You know it wasn’t.”
“Then why didn’t you tell me?” I ask again. “Didn’t you trust me enough to be honest?”
She hesitates. And that deepens the ache in my gut.
