Page 98 of Search My Soul
“Yes, I could have. I fooled you, didn’t I? You almost killed your own bitch because of how well things were played. If it weren’t for her being a snake, you would never have known the truth. Just admit it. You have always been threatened by me, and that was the real reason why you kept me as a runner. If I had been able to be in those meetings, they would have seen my potential over yours.” I shook my head as he spewed his delusional rhetoric. This conversation had gone on longer than I planned, so I decided to get it over with.
“You turned on your family for some money? I looked out for you more than anybody else. I helped you when everyone else cast you off as a fuck up, and this is the way you repay me?”
“See that’s your problem right there. I’m not some bitch who needed saving. You always saw me as a charity case, and I was far from it.”
“What does that even mean?”
“Everybody always praised you and Pure for being mature for your ages. They always boasted about how y’all were gonna takeover and shake things up, but they only saw me as a kid. It didn’t matter how many times I tried to prove myself, no one ever saw what I was capable of. I was just as smart and just as calculated as you were, but nobody saw it.”
“Do you have any last words?” I calmly asked, ready to get the hell out of here. I already knew things were about to get hectic when the family found out the truth, but I couldn’t worry about their feelings. This was business, and not only had Remi stolen from me, he violated our bond.
“You know my father is going to come after you right? It doesn’t matter what happened, he won’t let you get away with this.” I nodded, even though I wasn’t worried about him. I had no plans to tell the family that I was the one who killed Remi. There were only a few people who knew the truth about what Remi had done, and I planned to keep it that way. At least, until I could figure out what my next move would be.
Two bullets to the dome silenced Remi forever. I wasn’t one to get emotional about a kill, but this one in particular hurt me. We were thick as thieves as children, to the point that I considered him more like a brother. The fact that he tried to get over on me cut deeply because I was big on loyalty. Remi fucked up often and I always stepped in and made excuses for him. He was family and I wanted to see him win. It was the reason I stuck my neck out for him so many times. I loved him. From the moment my auntie brought him into the family, she made me promise to protect him. Not only had I broken that promise, but I did something she would probably never forgive me for if she were still here. Since I had already killed his girlfriend weeks prior, I would finally be able to close this chapter in my life.
The warehouse was quiet as everyone around me began to move around. I blacked out for a moment trying to figure out how I allowed things to get out of hand. For the first time in a long time, I questioned whether I was cut out for this life.Nobody was perfect, but the mistakes I made cost more than money could buy. Money could be replaced, but I lost something far greater, and I wasn’t sure how I would even begin to make up for it.
“We got the rest of this, boss. You can go ahead and head out,” Mace expressed while helping the crew move Remi’s body. Unlike most, I planned to allow his body to be found. Regardless of the mistakes he made, my family would want to give him a proper burial. I would be there front and center because that was what family did. Even when we killed Uncle Fletcher, my grandfather allowed his mother to say goodbye to her son. I already knew Emilio wasn’t going to let this go, but right now, I couldn’t focus on him. I wasn’t sure if he was in on it or not, and before I made my next move, I needed to get the full truth.
“You’re so quiet, baby. How can I make you feel better?” Malay purred as she dropped down into a squat in front of me. I should have taken my ass home, but instead I ended up at a bar. After multiple rounds of shots, I grabbed the bitch with the fattest ass and brought her back to my condo. It had been a while since I fucked anyone, and I thought it would help relieve some of my tension. Her eyes were filled with lust as she pulled my dick out of my boxers. My condoms were next to me on the couch because I already knew I was gonna fuck the dog shit out of her.
“Let me see what those pretty ass lips can do,” I grunted, as she stroked my dick in her hands. Lay and I have messed around a few times, so I knew what I was getting with her. Her pussy was decent, but her head game was out of this world. Baby girl couldsuck peanut butter through a straw, and she wasn’t afraid to get nasty with it.
“Anything for you, daddy.” I cringed a little when she called me that because I had grown so used to Juicy calling me that while we were fucking. There was something about the way she said it that did something to me. The way she would stare into my eyes like I was everything she ever wanted and needed. The intensity of her love for me was always displayed in her eyes and I missed that shit. Shaking my head, I tried to get back into the right mind frame.
My head fell back as Lay skillfully sucked my dick. The feeling of her warm mouth wrapped around my shit instantly relaxed me. All you could hear were her slurps and moans as she pleased me. Behind my eyelids, I saw images of Juicy and her innocent brown eyes. I used to tell her not to look up at me while she sucked me off because it would always make me cum too quick.
“Fuck,” I groaned. Malay was not coming to play, and I appreciated her for it. I needed her to help me erase the thoughts going through my mind right now, even if it were only for the moment.
“Shit, girl.” I hissed as Lay began to lick my balls while my dick was still deep in her throat. There weren’t very many women who could take all of me, but she was one of them. Her not having a gag reflex made things even better because I could push my dick as far as I wanted. Reaching down, I grabbed her hair and began to fuck her face. Juicy’s face kept flashing in my mind as I fucked Lay’s face. It started off gentle, but as my nut grew close, I pumped harder and deeper. Her mouth was wet as fuck, and I could feel her spit dripping down my balls.
Lay continued to play with my balls while I fucked her throat. My toes were curling, and within minutes, I was cumming downher throat. I tried to pull back, but she held me in place until I released every drop.
“Damn.” I huffed, trying to catch my bearings. Malay came here on a mission, and I could see the determination in her eyes.
“I’ve missed you, and I want to show you how much.” She pushed me back on the couch then straddled my lap. Reaching over, Lay grabbed a condom then ripped it open with her mouth. She loved to fuck, but I wasn’t used to her being so forward. Normally, I was the dominant one, but I could tell she had a point to prove. I wasn’t in the head space to put up a fight, so I allowed her to do her thing.
After she placed the rubber on my dick, Lay wasted no time sitting on it. My mouth fell open as she bounced on me. My hand rested on her waist, but I allowed her to take the lead.
“This dick feels so good. Shit,” Lay moaned, placing her hands on my shoulders for balance. Her ass was so big, I could see it jiggling as she hopped on my shit. Her thick cream coated the condom, and I was grateful that I strapped up because as drunk as I was, I might have forgotten to pull out.
“Do yo’ shit. Let me see how much you missed this dick,” I urged. Her eyes flickered with excitement as she turned her body in my lap. Leaning over, Lay gripped my legs and began to twerk on my dick. Her ass bounced in my face, and the sight made my dick even harder. I smacked her ass and watched her pussy glide up and down on my dick. While she wasn’t someone I would ever take seriously, baby girl was lethal. This would probably be my last time fucking her, so I decided to make it count.
For the next three hours, we fucked from the couch to the bed. I lost count of how many times I came, but I didn’t care. I needed to take my mind off all the fucked up shit going on in my world, so I took my frustration out on her pussy until I felt better.
At some point, we both fell asleep, which was unusual for me. I never let a girl stay overnight outside of Juicy. Even though this wasn’t my main house, I never wanted anyone to get the wrong impression. As soon as we finished, I smoked with them and then sent them on their way.
I should have kicked her out the moment I realized what was going on, but it actually felt good to have someone next to me. She may not have been the person I wanted, but she was a comfortable distraction.
“I’m soproud of you, boo. You’re about to open your own dance studio, which I know you’ve dreamed about for a long time. I know this year has been a little rocky, but you have accomplished so much,” Puma praised. She came with me for my final walk through of the property. It still didn’t seem real, but it was happening.
“Are you heading straight home or do you have another stop to make?” Puma inquired. Her and Normandee were on my ass everyday about taking it easy, but they honestly had nothing to worry about because this baby made me lazy. Besides, Darion had been helping me around the house so there wasn’t much for me to do.
“I’m going straight home. I’m exhausted and all I want to do is take a bubble bath and lay down.”
“I like the sound of that. You’ve been doing a lot of running around lately. I understand that you’re getting prepared for your studio, but I also want to make sure you aren’t putting too much stress on my nephew.” She eyed me with her eyebrows raised.
“I’m beginning to think you love this baby more than you love me.” I pouted with my arms crossed. My friends checked on me daily, but baby boy was their main concern. He was already so loved, so I knew he would be spoiled right along with the rest of the babies in our clan.
