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It’s a stab to the heart to hear him ask that. “No. You were … you are an amazing man, Jameson. And I … you deserve better than me.”
“This is it, then?” he asks softly. “We’re just over?”
“Yeah.” I can barely swallow. “I guess so.”
We stand there in the hallway, and even though there’s not much space between us it feels like miles.
“I’ll …uh… grab my things.”
“You don’t have to do that,” I whisper. “You can get them any time.”
“No.” He rubs a hand over his jaw. “I’d rather just be done with it.”
I flinch again.
Done with it.
Done with me.
Can’t say I blame him.
“I’ll wait out here.” I point to the living room.
It doesn’t take him long to pack up his stuff in a backpack he keeps here, and I stand from the couch when he heads for the door after putting his key on the counter.
“I’m really sorry. I mean it.”
He looks back over his shoulder at me. “I’m sorry, too,” he sighs.
And then I watch my present, the man I believed was my future, become my past.
CHAPTER 64
HARLOW
Icall in sick to work and since the last place I want to be is my apartment, I find myself at my parents’ house.
My mom opens the door and I’m not sure if she knows yet.
I instantly burst into tears. “Mommy.”
I haven’t called her that since I was small, but in this moment I’m just a child who needs her mom. She pulls me into her arms.
“Oh, honey, what is it?”
I can’t find the words between my sobs. Somehow, she manages to guide me upstairs and into my old room.
“Shh, my sweet girl. I’m here.”
My mom holds me, letting me cry until there’s no moisture left for my eyes to get rid of.
When I can finally speak, I tell her all of it. About spending more time with Spencer, the kiss and sleeping with him, being surprised by the proposal, going out with Spencer last night and what happened with Jameson this morning.
“Oh, Harlow,” she sighs when I’m done. “This is quite a mess.”
“I know,” I sniffle. My eyes are sore from all the tears I’ve cried.
“I don’t have any advice for you, other than, right now I don’t believe you need to think about Jameson or Spencer. You need to focus on you and Monroe. That’s it.”
