Page 106 of My Heart's Doctor
“Angry? You think I’m angry with you? If I were, it would only be because when you left me, you tore out my heart and took it with you. But I’m not angry with you, I’m angry with myself for not having the courage to tell you how I feel about you,” I said, one step away from confessing my feelings.
“I don’t understand where you’re going with this.”
“I’m in love with you,” I confessed, there it was, I had said it. “I’ve never been in love before and that’s why I didn’t realize that what I felt for you was immense love. It’s beautiful and distressing to give that power to another person, but I give it to you. You have the power over my happiness or my misery, because I am deeply and completely in love with you. I don’t want to lose you; without you my life is hell. Without you I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t think. I love you, Devon Dulcet, my sweet doctor, you are the doctor of my heart.” I observed her for long seconds and then asked, “Can you say something? Please, tell me something,” I begged, moving as close to her as I could and feeling immensely anxious at her astonishment.
“William, you let me go,” she insisted.
“Because I was an imbecile. Because at that moment you seemed so determined to leave and your confession left me so surprised that I couldn’t react. Forgive me, I was a complete idiot. But this idiot loves you more than he can explain. It doesn’t matter to me that you can’t have children. I love you and it’s you I want to be with, nothing else matters to me,” I affirmed, hoping she would understand that only she mattered to me.
“I don’t want you to give up being a father because of me,” she said, and I could tell that her voice was breaking and barely audible.
“I’m already a father, and besides, you’re only guilty of taking possession of my heart and my daughter’s, who also loves you very much,” I affirmed.
“Surely you want Aurora to have siblings and I...”
She didn’t finish her sentence and lowered her head. Once again, it seemed as if she was letting life defeat her. I reached out and took her by the chin to lift her face, but I was so nervous that I was trembling just like she was.
“I love you. You are the most extraordinary woman I’ve ever met in my life and I want you for myself, I want a life with you. I’ve never felt connected to someone the way I feel with you. I know you probably don’t love me because I haven’t given you reasons to love me, but I will fight every day to earn your love. And now, stop making excuses and tell me if I have any chance. Put me out of this torment, please,” I begged, but a light of hope ignited in my heart when I saw the emotion of joy reflected in her eyes.
“I love you. I love you so much that I walked away from you so you could be happy having a big family, I walked away from you because I want the best for you and Aurora and I think I’m not it. I love you, I’ve missed you with all my soul and without you, I can’t sleep or eat or think either. I love you with all my heart and soul.”
My soul returned to my body. Hearing her say she loved me was the most wonderful thing that had ever happened to me.
“Devon... you and Aurora are the best things that have happened in my life, you are my life. Devon...”
I brought my hand to her soft, full lips and caressed them with my thumb, and I couldn’t hold back any longer and leaned over to kiss her. I poured into that kiss all the love I felt for her. With Devon it had always been like this, but at that moment and, for the first time, I was conscious that I was kissing her with love.
“My sweet love, my sweet doctor. You can’t imagine how much I’ve missed you. I love you and desire you madly,” I said, without separating my lips from hers to kiss her again.
I only pulled away to be able to breathe normally because my heart and lungs were about to collapse. I wanted to go slowly, but I looked at her and in her shining eyes I saw so much desire that I lost what little control I had left and began to strip off her clothes while kissing her silky skin.
“I want you so much, my love, that I don’t think we’ll make it to the bedroom. I’m going to take you here, I’m going to make love to you,” I said, with a hoarse and panting voice.
“Do it. I’m burning for you too,” she affirmed, and her words made something explode inside me.
I undressed as quickly as I could and hovered over her. Feeling her perfect skin, the warmth of her body and seeing her overwhelmed by passion was... too much. My control went out the window. I held her hands above her head and launched myself at her spectacular breasts, soft, firm and perfect. I was breathless and so hard it hurt. I continued kissing her delicious body, pausing at her navel before continuing the journey to her most intimate area, which I was eager to taste again. Gently, I opened her legs, put my hands on her thighs and buried my mouth in her. She was delicious.
Devon couldn’t keep still and buried her fingers in my hair, clinging to it. Her pants and moans intensified as I accelerated the rhythm of my tongue.
“Your taste is fascinating, it drives me crazy with desire. You drive me crazy, crazy.”
“William, I need you, please,” she implored, and I knew it was time because I couldn’t hold back any longer either.
“I need you too, my love.”
I positioned myself between her legs and, without taking my eyes off hers, I slid inside her. I had to clench my jaw because I almost came at that moment. We both moaned loudly. I started moving, feeling like I was in paradise.
“God, ‘Sweet,’ what I feel with you seems unreal, it’s indescribable.”
That pleasurable sensation grew, tensing every part of my body. I increased the rhythm with Devon’s legs wrapped around my waist. I had to make a great effort not to lose control too soon, but I was already at the limit of what was tolerable. I felt when Devon’s spasms increased and her gaze clouded with the passion of the moment. She screamed my name and I felt like the happiest man in the Universe because I reached an intense orgasm at the same time. I pushed a couple more times and collapsed onto her body, sweaty like mine. When I could breathe normally again, I raised my face to look at her. Her beautiful face flushed with passion, her lips swollen from my kisses, and her bright eyes gave her such an erotic appearance that I felt the desire to take her again, but at that moment I restrained myself and only caressed her cheek.
“What you make me feel is so intense that I feel my body and heart are going to collapse,” I confessed.
“I feel the same way,” she said, making my heart race again.
“Devon, we didn’t use protection,” I clarified, because although she couldn’t get pregnant, I was clear that protection was also for health care.
“I’m healthy, I don’t know if I told you, but I’ve only been with my ex-husband, and now with you, but with no one else,” she affirmed, and although her confession surprised me, at that moment I understood why she always seemed so shy and, although she always responded with ardor, many times she also seemed inexperienced.
