Page 44 of The Secret Job: Into the Depths of Depravity
“What shall I tell her in the meantime?”
“Nothing. I will tell her you are on a secret job on the Monday you don’t turn up for work.”
“Thank you.”
“And your husband is ok with you taking the job?” Sandy can’t help but enquire, clearly surprised he is.
I square my shoulders and reply, “James supports my decision, and he looks forward to me coming home after finishing the job and spending the rest of our lives slightly richer I hope.”
Sandy smiles but the gesture doesn’t reach her eyes. “Ok then, you have a very supportive husband, I’m glad to hear it.”
I smile back with pride, “I do, he loves me very much.”
“You are a very lucky girl. Be ready Monday at 9am sharp and Frank will collect you. Take care Roxy,” she says, rising, and I take that as my cue to stand too.
“Thanks Sandy, for everything,” I reply.
“Shout if you need anything this week or when you return,” is all Sandy says as I say goodbye and make my way back down the stairs and out to my car. I don’t know whether to be excited or sombre. This secret job is a real head fuck, and I haven’t even got there yet. And since when did anyone require sedatives to go to a job? I don’t think I’m going to mention that little piece of information to James, he’ll be questioning me far more stringently than he has so far. I know Sandy said to study the Red job board and prepare myself. But I can’t bring myself to look. At this point my nerves are building and I’m beginning to question whether saying yes was really the right thing to do. What if I can’t do any of it, what if the kinks frighten me? Then logically I think of all the jobs I’ve done so far and none of them have been so bad. I have got this.I think…
I don’t take any jobs in the lead up to next week. I spend the time working at the Clarendon, running around after the kids and being as normal as possible. No one would ever know I’m about to spend five days and nights locked away with three unknown men with kinks they were not willing to tell Sandy.
I hold it together until Sunday night when the damn breaksand I have a little sob with James. I’m a little frightened but I tell James I’m just nervous. He hugs me and strokes me and tells me everything will be ok. It’s only five days, it’s less than the last big job I did. I can do it. He reads to me in bed and lets me suckle his cock to help me relax and fall into a fitful sleep, dungeons and hooded men plaguing my dreams.
When Monday morning arrives, I awake in a sweat as James soothes me from my nightmare. He’s already on top of me and his hard cock nudges at my entrance as my eyes open. I widen my legs to let him enter me, to comfort me and work himself in and out of me. I calm my thoughts and ease into the rhythm of him, savouring the delicious feeling he is building inside of me. I lay completely still in a sleepy haze as James fucks me from my nightmare and into my dreams. It’s just what I needed, to be woken up in this way from the horrors that only my imagination can bring. My climax finds me quickly and I arch up into James, my entire body shuddering as he rings out every wave of pleasure that runs through my body until he groans, stills and unloads into me.
I open my eyes and look back up at him properly and give a sleepy smile and say, “Thank you, I needed that.”
“I know you had a fitful sleep, I didn’t want to wake you but you were muttering feverishly so I wanted to break the spell. I also guiltily wanted you to have my come inside you when you arrive at your job today,” he says sheepishly.
“I had a really terrible night’s sleep; I much prefer to wake up and find you inside me.” I grin up at him. “I should probably get moving, I need to get my head into gear if I’m going to stand a chance of making it in time for Frank to collect me.”
“Go jump in the shower now, I’ll start hustling the kids. I love you Rose Petal.”
“I love you too, Husband,” I reply and my heart aches for leaving him for this job that I haven’t been entirely honest with him about.
James kisses my forehead before climbing off me and walking into the ensuite to clean up before pulling his track pants back on and heading out to find the kids. I stretch and yawn and pull myself up with a heavy head and a foreboding feeling. This is not how I usually feel about a job—nowhere near. I need to get out of my head, Sandy’s warning about the people and job ringing in my ears. I hope I’ve made the right decision. Only time will tell now.
I try to eat after I’ve showered, trying to act normal around the kids and James. I give them all a giant hug and a kiss to cover them for the five days I am going to be away.
“Remember, use your safe word, get out of there if you hate it. Forget about the money,” James says for the hundredth time. “We will be fine, and Matty can make our city break after you arrive back, so you have that to look forward to.”
I smile and then reply, “Please don’t tell him about my job.” The uncertainty of what he might say in response to the news makes my stomach flip.
“You know I won’t. That is our secret,” James reassures, and I breathe out a breath I didn’t realise I was holding.
“You’d better go or the kids will be late. Thanks for your support, James, I don’t know what I’d do without it.”
“Always Rose Petal, I will always support you and your decisions. I love you.”
“I love you too.”
“See you in five days.”
“See you in five days,” I promise, turning to hug and kiss the kids all over again, and then James as he bundles them out of the front door and into the car.
I wave to them all as my heart feels like it’s going to burst. I’m doing this for them, it’s all for them. I can do this. Iwilldo this.
Frank arrives outside promptly at nine so I lock up and climb into the car. I don't bring anything as I’ve been asked notto. It feels strange leaving without any overnight bag or personal belongings. He smiles and offers me a warm hello. When I’m buckled in he reaches over and gives me a pill and a bottle of water. “I’ve been told to give you these,” he says, bemused.
