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He pressed his forehead against mine, as the last of that tension drained from him and he felt like Has again.
“Thank fuck. I know I’m a mess, but I’m going to work on it, okay? I can’t promise I’m not going to want to take retribution from those fuckers at some point, but I’ll work on getting my head right. I want to be everything you need me to be.”
“I just need you to be you, Has. I’ll help you with everything else, but only because it’ll ease your mind. I guess we can’t do the old lady ceremony right now, right?”
He groaned, lifting his head so we could focus on each other again, but his lips were pressed together and his jaw looked tight.
“I hate that this fucker is dictating our future for us right now, but it’s too dangerous for us all to let our guard down like that. The person who tried to steal you from me would be in the room, and you’d be too exposed.”
“But you’d all be there, Has. It could be safe with you all there. As far as we know, there’s only one bad guy, right?”
He reached up to catch my jaw in a light grip.
“This club is full of bad guys, babe. The only difference is that most of us focus our anger outward, and this one fucker is turning it on us instead. If we could figure out what his beef with us is, maybe we could work out who, but we’re clueless, and I’m not fucking risking your safety until we’ve smoked him out. Got it?”
I loved it when he got all possessive like that. He really was my hero, my protector, and the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. My first, my only.My always.
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I’dfoundmyfuture,and she was right fucking here, and she’d been in my path all along, because she was the sister of my VP. It was burning me up inside that I couldn’t make it official right now, but her safety came before everything else, and I wouldn’t fail her again.
We had somewhere to live, we had family, and we were mostly safe, as long as we stayed in our room. Was house arrest going to take the shine off of a beautiful thing? Fuck no. We had so many firsts to share, and I was looking forward to every last one. Anything else, be it enemies of the club, or enemies of my mental health, would all have to stay outside that fucking door, because in this room, all that mattered was us. Our future. Our love. Our fucking journey together.
I led my lady, my future old lady, to our bed, and sat her down.
“If only there was something we could do with all this alone time, babe… got any ideas?”
A small smile became a huge grin, as she tapped her chin with a fingernail.
“Hmmm… what can we do that just needs the two of us… I’m open to suggestions.”
I gestured to my jeans. “Why don’t you check out what’s inside… just might have something for you to play with.”
With a giggle, Elise pulled open the button and zip, and eased my jeans over my hips, widening her eyes dramatically.
“Wow… that looks too big for me to be able to play with, Has. Maybe you should play with it by yourself.”
Huh? “What?”
She started giggling, teasing her fingers over my cock, with those damn boxers keeping our skin from touching.
“Firsts, Has… I’ve never seen you get yourself there… you know… using your hand.” Fuck me, she wanted to watch me jerking off? It wasn’t exactly what I’d had in mind, but I was all about giving her those firsts, wasn’t I?
“I could do that. Want me to get you off first?”
She shook her head.
“I want to touch myself while I watch.” Holy fuck. This sweet girl, who was a virgin a week ago, was fast becoming a fucking sex kitten in the bedroom.
We stripped, and I sat up on the bed with my back against the headboard, taking myself in hand, while my woman sat there with her fingers between her legs, and her bottom lip clamped between her teeth.
“You’re fucking killing me, babe. Let me get you off first.”
Elise shook her head firmly.
“This is how I want it, Has. I want to watch you pleasure yourself, while I do the same. It’s something I’ve never done before.”
Jesus. I stroked my cock, my eyes firmly on Elise’s fingers teasing in and out of my sweet pussy, before they swirled around that little clit, which was also mine. Now and then I darted looks up to her face, to see how gorgeous she looked when she was so aroused, that flush of her cheeks highlighting her enjoyment of this moment. I firmed up my strokes, wanting to push us to the peak of our personal pleasure, so we could get back to touching each other instead.
