Page 137 of Wishing for La Luna
“Rio…” Tito starts.
I stall them both with a hand. “We’re doing this, and we’re releasing it. If the label wants to sue me, so be it.”
“Hablale,” Niko says to Tito, throwing his hands up.
“You can’t do this without your team knowing,” Tito insists.
I take my phone and shoot a text to Esme, Kresh, and Maeven. Then I put my phone on airplane mode.
“Let’s do this.”
It takes us four hours to select the tracks we want from the vast arsenal we’ve mixed together over the years. While he and Tito eat, I play them and rehearse the songs. The first couple of times are rough, making me question what the fuck I’m doing.
How do I even let this shit out?I know people are going to call me a simp for this one. But the more I think about it, the less I give a fuck. This my ode to us. A ballad to mydiosa. Because I've never felt like this before about anyone.Luna es única. Our love unlike any other.
The next time I hop on the track, it’s natural, like it’s made for the words. I can feel it sucking the poison from my wound.
Tito shoves a plate at me while Niko gets the equipment ready. “Eat it.”
I do as he says and wolf down the burger and fries. I chase it with a large glass of water, and then I drink another.
“Let’s go,” Niko says.
I get up from my chair, with the burn in my chest, and walk to the booth. Inside, the silence is thick, and the world disappears. I’m standing alone like I was when I wrote all these words. He signals, and I close my eyes.
I prayed for this, God
Begged you for light
I should’ve known what you would do
You brighten my way
So I can see the whip coming as you flog me
But it’s okay.
I’m ready to bleed
For mi pecado de amarla and the love that haunts me.
Es Rio
Bienvenidos a la Sangria
Pero no la que se bebe.
Hahaha, esta es la que te limpia
It’s The Bloodletting.
It takes us overnight, minimal sleep, and a lot of emotion, but I’m purged. My brain is spent, my body exhausted. I lie on the bed, making a list of things that are going to change.
I’m going to move the fuck on. I’m going to give myself a chance to love again now that I freed myself and her.
Goodbye, Luna.
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