Page 40 of Should've Been Us
Her heart stuttered at those whispered words. Who was this man that she’d known all her life and never knew at all? Sweet and gentle and honest to a fault. She’d spent so long hating him for telling her the truths she didn’t want to hear but now, like this, he somehow knew exactly what she needed and gave it to her without hesitation orquestion.
“Just… tell me what you want from me.” She squeezed his hand in return, thankful he hadn’t tried to force her around to face him. Somehow it was easier not having to look at him. He was there, with her, his big presence warming her and making her feelsafe.
“Need, baby. It’s what I need. I need you to trustme.”
“I…” Her voice caught but she forced out her own truth, “Ido.”
“I need you to give up control to me. Not all the time. Not out there in the real world, but here, when it’s just the two of us, I need you to do what I tell you, what I ask you, and know that anything and everything I do is to make you feel good. Can you do that?” His lips touched her shoulder, gently,sweetly.
“I…” She paused, trying to think itthrough.
He was asking a lot. He had to know that. He was talking as if this, them, was a sure thing and going to continue. When she was still trying to figure out what it all meant, he was asking formore.
“I know it doesn’t come natural to you, especially with our history. You’re gonna balk the first time I tell you to get on your knees and suck my dick.” She must’ve made a noise at his crude words because he chuckled and nuzzled closer to her, “But that’s one of the things I love about you. I love your fire and your passion. I’m not trying to take it away. I just need to be the one in control and knowing that you trust me enough to do what I tell you, fuck baby it’s gonna make it even better between us. Trustme.”
“Wh-what will you do if I don’t follow anorder?”
His lips against her shoulder pulled into what could only have been a smile, “Punishment ofcourse.”
“Punishment?” She wiggled in his embrace a little as she thought aboutthat.
Why was she getting turned on the more he talked? She shouldn’t be. Should she? She didn’t relish the idea of him getting to call all the shots, that was for damn sure, and yet… when she thought about misbehaving, just to fight with him, tease him, be a brat, she couldn’t deny that spot between her legs grew hot and wet andachy.
“Oh, I think you know exactly what I mean.” Connor bit her shoulder, his fingers beginning to slide down her stomach again, “Now answer me. Are you wet for me,Lu?”
“Yes.” She groaned when his fingers slid between herlegs.
“Fucking soaked is more like it.” His voice was a guttural growl, “Tell me you’re not already thinking of ways to defy me just to see if I’ll spank that cute littleass.”
She arched into his touch, “Do you want me to tell you what you want to hear or do you want me to behonest?”
“Honest.Always.”
“I was thinking that all the fighting we’ve done all these years…” She gasped as he found her clit and pinched, “Would’ve gone a lot differently if you’d threatened to spank mesooner.”
“Fuck.” Connor groaned as he flexed his fingers, driving them into her as his erection pressed against her ass. “I knew it. I knew you were perfect for me. Goddamn. Every time I think I have the upper hand you go and rip away another bit of my sanity. I intended to go slow with you, ease you into it, but you don’t want slow do you, baby? You want to drive me as crazy as I driveyou.”
“Con…” She gasped as he slid his fingers out of her and grabbed her leg, pulling it up and back over his hip. She didn’t even have time to complain about feeling empty before his cock was there. He pushed inside her with one brutal thrust, holding her in place with his strong arms as he began to fuck her from behind. “Oh God,Con…”
“That’s it.” He growled, “Keep saying my name just likethat.”
“Con. Oh, oh, Connor.” She arched back, trying to reach him, wanting to kiss him, needing to see him, but he didn’t budge his grip on her and she was trapped in his steel embrace. It was hot. There was no denying that. He’d promised her that letting him be in control would be. But something heavy in her chest was making it hard to breathe, let alone think and she couldn’t let go, not like this, not without knowing he was right there with her, on a dangerous precipice, not without seeing that blatant honesty in his eyes that said he’d catch her, “Connor,please.”
“Please what?” His voice was harsh, his breathing turning ragged. “Tell me what you want,baby.”
“You. I.” She gasped as he stroked deep and when she had air in her lungs again her voice sounded like a whine, “I need to see you. Please. I need to see you. Oh God, please, I need… I can’t… I needyou…”
“Ah, God, Lu.” Connor groaned as his grip on her loosened and she whimpered when he slid out of her. Then he was there, rolling her to her back and looming over her. “Better,baby?”
She saw the worry in his ocean eyes and immediately reached for him, pulling him back into her arms, needing his touch in a way that wasn’t easy to explain or rationalize. She kissed him hard and held onto him, not understanding this sudden tidal wave of feeling he’d pushed her into. She didn’t say a word. She didn’t have to. When he broke the kiss, she knew he understood simply from the way he looked down at her, the way he stroked her hair so softly even as he fit himself back between her legs and drove in fast andhard.
“Connor!” She cried out as he wrestled her arms over her head, holding her down as he pounded into her again andagain.
She hadn’t known that was what she needed but he had. She’d felt like she was flying away, just busting apart at the seams as her entire life changed overnight. She’d thought she knew what she liked, what she was into, but Connor had turned everything upside down. She’d needed him to help hold her together and he just gotit.
He gother.
“That’s it baby. I got you.” His voice was rough but his eyes were soft as he resituated her beneath him and pulled her leg up around his waist, “Hold on tome.”
