Page 19 of Devastation
The queens are wonderful women, but you must do what your soul guides you to do.
Perhaps you will find a new queen in each realm who provides all the qualities you need to face the coming battle."
Taking a break for a minute, I think about Serenity and the other queens. Would they accept me as Mother Nature? From what I know of tethers, the queens will have to choose me in return.
And who would be the new queen of the fae realm if that wasn't me anymore? Or was I expected to be thereandin the human realm?
Fuck, there are too many unanswered questions. I wish Witch Bitch was with me now to make sense of this all. I miss that sassy woman.
Shaking my head to clear the millions of thoughts, I plod onward in the journal entries.
"Another aspect of your soul about which I am uncertain is immortality. You have died in your previous life, but now that your demi-god side has been awoken in this one, I don’t know if that will change.
A misconception of immortality is that it makes you impenetrable. That is not the case. It makes inflicting fatal wounds more difficult for your attacker if they are not immortal themselves
We can still die in the blink of an eye if the attack is dealt by a fellow god or goddess. Our attacks are much more potent to each other, and they pierce that veil of immortality. We were created differently.
Your mates make you unique as well amongst the gods and goddesses. Not one of us has ever been given a fated mate, yet alone five. You will need to find Eros, the god of love, for him to explain the interconnecting web between you all.
Perhaps there is a way to share immortality and powers amongst your group, but that is only speculation.
I do suggest however, that you discover as soon as possible whether your mates are immortal with you, or if they must be protected at all cost.
Please know that it is an option that you may have to go on one day living without them if they do not share your immortality.
Protect each other.
Love each other.
Enjoy every moment together.
Life is not guaranteed to anyone—even a goddess that has seen the rise and fall of empires."
I close the journal as the last fading rays of the day diminish, making it impossible to read easily.
Rolling onto my back, I stare up at the ceiling and try to process the overwhelming amount of "what if" scenarios she wrote in the journal.
The thought of immortality had never crossed my mind, and she was right to suggest that we needed to figure that out first. Otherwise, it would eat away at me until I knew. It would likely kill me if they were bound to have shorter lifespans, even with the extended ones that fae have.
Wait—what is Ash? Is he a human?
Pulling a pillow to my face, I hold it tightly and scream into it, muffling the sound. I scream over and over, allowing my anxious energy to burn out of me.
Placing the pillow to the side, I mutter, "Much better."
A knock sounds from the door, and I yell like I feel a regal goddess would, "Enter if you dare!"
The smell of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies teases my senses and I bolt upright to find Zedd staring at me with wide and scared eyes.
"Uhm...are you okay?" he stammers, "I...uh...saw you screaming into your pillow."
His eyebrows scrunch together as I laugh maniacally and wave at him. When I manage to control my laughter just a tad, I wheeze out, "Oh you know...just a slight mental break. Nothing to see here. Don't alert the looney bin. I don't think I'd look good in those white jackets."
His confusion switches to a look of sympathy, and he strides toward me with the plate of chocolatey goodness. Putting the plate onto the bed near me, he clambers up to sit in front of me and we both assume a criss-cross position with our legs.
Pulling the plate to sit between us, I recall a memory of us sitting together when the other boys were out on dates and we were stuck at home. On nights like that, we'd binge watch the fantasy movies that the others weren't the biggest fans of, like Lord of the Rings and Star Wars.
Without fail, we'd always have a plate of chocolate chip cookies between us as we ate whatever our feelings were in the moment.
