Page 92 of Fighting Temptation (Men of Honor 1)
“Did you get her out in the end?” I ask, hoping to pull him from his panic.
When he opens his eyes they’re flat, with less emotion raging in them. Damn! He nods his head once in response.
“Then that’s what matters. I know I don’t know the whole story and I probably couldn’t even begin to understand it if I tried. But Jaxson you need to understand, you’re only human. You can’t control other people’s actions. You did the best you could and in the end it turned out to be enough because you saved her life.” He shakes his head, not believing me. “Yes. You have to work through this or it’s going to kill you.”
He hangs his head again in despair. I wrap my arms around his body, my breasts pressing against his hard chest. I hold him close and give him all the comfort I can. I kiss his chest right over his heart while the hot water pours down on us, catching the rivulets that run down his body with my tongue. His cock swells against my stomach and his arms come around me, holding me tight.
“I need you,” he rasps in my ear, “I need you to remind me of the good.”
He picks me up by my ass then turns around and pins me against the wall. He stays still for a moment and we watch each other through the steam that billows heavy around us. It’s as if we are in our own world and no one else can enter it but us.
Sorrow and pain still fills his gaze, breaking my heart. Even though I tried so hard not to a single tear leaks down my face, “All you need to do is look in the mirror and you will be reminded of the good this world has to offer.” His eyes close wanting to shut out my words, not believing them. But I won’t let him. I kiss his jaw, his cheek, when my lips are by his ear I push on, “You’re the best man I’ve ever known Jaxson. You’re strong, honorable and loyal. The best thing that ever happened to that little girl was having you be in the wrong place at the right time. Just like me.”
He shakes his head, “Stop,” he croaks out, not wanting to hear my words, feeling like he doesn’t deserve them. He grabs the back of my hair, his fingers gripping the heavy wet strands to pull my head back, then his delicious mouth is on mine. The kiss is filled with so many emotions, I pour all the love that I can into it, trying to erase the pain and anguish that doesn’t belong there.
He arranges my legs so they hang in the crook of his arms, then in one smooth motion he slams himself inside of me, completing me. I sob against his lips at the perfection our bodies make. “You’re so good. Perfect, perfect for me,” I cry into his mouth as he thrusts deep inside of me. I cling to him and give him all of me, letting him use my body as an outlet for his pain.
I drop my head back against the wall as he bends down drawing a taut nipple in his mouth. I whimper, water and tears mixing down my face as I feel my orgasm begin to build.
Jaxson groans, “That’s it baby, I can feel it, you’re close.” He speeds up his pace, slamming into me faster and deeper, hitting the exact spot that I need him to. Closing my eyes I let the orgasm wash over me. Jaxson holds me through it all until I’m limp and sated.
Opening my eyes I see him watching me while he continues to thrust inside of me. I bring my head forward from the wall and kiss his lips, “I love you, every amazing part of you.” His breathing kicks up and his hands grip my wet skin tighter, “Let go Jax. I wanna feel you come inside of me.”
And he does; he buries his face in my neck and groans through the intensity of his pleasure. We stay in our position, soaking in a state of bliss. I feel myself starting to slip so I go to unwind my legs from his waist but he holds me tighter, “No. Don’t leave,” he rasps in my neck, the desperate plea tugging at my heart.
I lean down where his face is still buried in my neck and bring my lips to his ear, “I’ll never leave you Jaxson. I’ll stay for as long as you will have me.”
“Forever,” he mumbles in my neck.
“Forever,” I repeat the word, my heart filling with peace.
“Well Julia I am happy to tell you that you’re completely healthy,” Doctor Bayer says with a smile, while looking through my paperwork.
I smile back, “So it’s just stress then?”
“Actually no. You’re pregnant.”
I stare at her in shock, swearing I misunderstood her.
“What?”
She smiles brightly, “You’re pregnant.”
“But, but that’s impossible. You told me I couldn’t get pregnant.”
“No. I said your chances of getting pregnant are slim, but I didn’t say it was impossible.”
“But I’m on the pill?”
Her expression turns serious, “Yes, which is something you have to stop taking now. This is very unusual, but I have heard of it happening before.”
I’m pregnant. I put my hand to my stomach, warmth spreading through my body.
“The last time we spoke you were not sexually active. Obviously that has changed?”
I smile softly, “Yes. It’s very new, but he’s someone I’ve known for a long time. Someone that I’ve been in love with for a long time.”
She smiles, “That’s good to hear. I know how much it hurt you when I told you about your condition. We will send you for an ultra-sound so we can determine a due date but for it to show up on the test, I’d say it must have happened right at the beginning.”
She writes something on a piece of paper and hands it to me. “This is the name of some prenatal vitamins you can pick up. My office will call you with a date for the ultra-sound.” She puts her hand tenderly on my shoulder, “I’m happy this happened for you Julia.”
