Page 105 of Sinful as They Come
“Mad that I kissed you. I’m sorry I did it. It just… It just happened out of nowhere. I didn’t… I don’t know why I did it. You were just… You were there and… If you’re pissed off that I kissed you, then I’m sorry. I didn’t do it to upset you.” It was a struggle to get the words out. Holly had every right to be mad at me for kissing her if she didn’t want it. But… she had kissed me back, and I was clinging on to that fact. If she kissed me back, did that mean she saw me as more than some desperate piece of trailer park trash?
Holly pressed the book tighter against her chest. She was blinking those big eyes at me and part of me thought she was doing it on purpose, because I couldn’t get enough of them.
“You think I’m mad at you?” she whispered.
“I mean… Yeah. I kissed you outta nowhere. You ran away from me…”
“I kissed you,” she saidquickly.
“What?” I chuckled lowly.
“I… I kissed you… I thought you… I thought you didn’t like it. Why would you like it? I… I freaked out. I shouldn’t have run away like that. And it shouldn’t have taken me this long to apologize. So, I’m sorry for… For not saying sorry, and for kissing you.”
The small frown on Holly’s face told me she was being serious. That it wasn’t some weird joke.
“But I kissed you.” I laughed.
“No, I kissed you.”
“I kissed you.”
“I kissed you, Sawyer.”
“But…” My eyebrows furrowed. “No, what are you talking about?”
“What areyoutalking about? I kissed you and you didn’t like it.”
“Wait, wait, wait.” I held my hands up at that. “What makes you think I didn’t like it?”
“Well, I liked it. I liked it so much and I can’t stop thinking about it, but I didn’t think you’d like it because—”
That was all I needed to hear. That was all Icouldhear. Because I was fucking aching for her at that point. My hands landed on her waist, holding her tight as my lips collided with hers. The kiss was fast and heated, my tongue pushing into her mouth. She dropped her book and whined for me. The sound went right to my cock. I couldn’t help it when my fingers pressed into her, holding her as tight as I could.
I pushed her backwards, not stopping until I could get her back up against the rows and rows of books behind her. My hands landed on the shelf before me, keeping me and Holly steady as our tongues moved together. Her soft lips, her little whines… I was in heaven. I was kissing a goddamn angel.
Soft hands landed on the sides of my face, moving up further and further until Holly could grab at my hair. She gave my locks a little tug and I groaned against her too perfect lips. Fuck, I wanted her. I needed her. Holly Sutton wasn’t the girl I thought she was.
And I wasn’t the guy I thought I was, because I was so goddamn set onmaking her mine.
If she wanted to be mine.
“Sawyer,” she whispered when she pulled away from me. Her eyes were wide and bright, her cheeks flushed with the prettiest shade of pink.
My thumb ran over her plump, bottom lips “I’ve been waiting a whole week to do that.”
She let out a shaky breath. “You were?”
I nodded once. “I couldn’t stop thinking about you. I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately, actually. More than I’d like to admit. I don’t know what it is about you. But I know I need more of it.”
“I’d be a liar if I told you I wasn’t thinking about you a lot as well… Like, a lot. Sawyer, that kiss. This kiss. They were both so perfect.” She looked down, still blushing as she avoided my gaze.
My finger slipped under her chin, giving her a little push so we’d lock eyes. And God did I love her eyes. “Look at me. Please. I need to look at you. I haven’t seen your face in a week. And my imagination isn’t enough.”
“I haven’t come in to see you because I thought you were angry with me. And I’m sure you’ve been angry with me plenty of times in the past. You hate me,” she said. “But it was different this time, because I was feeling so much all at once. I liked the kiss, Sawyer. I liked it so much. I like spending time with you. I like seeing you paint and seeing your art. I like how much you look out for me. How you protect. I like… God, I just really like you. But I know you could never feel the same way.”
I just really like you. My heart stopped. It stopped right then and there and exploded and came back together in a perfect solid piece all at once. And then I felt it fill up with what seemed like pure, unfiltered happiness. Those five words were enough to make me want her even more.
My head tilted as I looked at her. At that sweet, innocent look on her face. She was being serious. Every word. I could tell. I knew Holly’s serious side – only because I saw that side of her whenever we got into an argument. But we weren’t fighting. We were standing in between the shelves of the library after sharing the second-best kiss I had ever experienced in my life. The first being the kiss I had the other day with Holly.
