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“And you’re not?”
“I am.That’s the point.He gets it because he’s demons of his own.In some ways, we’re more alike than I really care to admit.Sex rules us.We just deal with that in different ways.”
“He fucks and you abstain.”
“I don’t think I’ve been doing a whole lot of abstaining since you showed up.”
He traced his curled fingers along the curve of her cheek and over her lips.Then kissed her where his touch had ended.“Stay, and let’s do this.”
When she hesitated, he tugged her away from the door.“Do you want me, Alle?I want you.”
“I do, but—”
He pulled back a little, but only so that he could rest their brows together.“No buts.”He pressed his index finger to her lips.“Go and get your sexy bottom on that bed.”He gave her arse a playful slap.“Go.Bed, now.Hop to it.”
Warily, Alle scampered back over to the bed.She turned to face him when she reached it, and perched on the very edge of the mattress.Spook followed.He leaned into her prompting her to scurry backwards into the centre of the bed.The mattress sagged as he knelt.She watched him, still apprehensive as he scooped up the condom she’d dropped, and tore open the foil.
“Spook, you don’t have to.If you’re not sure.”
“I think I do.”
She quietened as she watched him roll the sheath down his length.He took his time, made sure he’d got it on right.No one-handed applications for him.
“Now, where’ve you got to?”He grabbed her legs and playfully tugged her closer.His teeth dug into his lower lip as his gaze fastened on her face.“Too fast, hm?”He trailed two wetted fingers down her body, between the valley of her breasts, past her navel and down between the lips of her sex.Alle gasped as he penetrated her.His thumb rolled over her clit, and started chasing all her reservations away, while his fingers dipped into the gathered heat at her core.Maybe it would be all right.
“Do you want to come first?”he asked.
“I want you to come in me.I don’t give a damn about coming at all.”
He chuckled.“I don’t think there are many men who’ve had that said to them.”
“I’m serious.I just want you inside of me.”
“Uh-huh, I kind of got that.So let’s work on you not being so tense, eh?”
How could she be anything but tense when her nerves were jittering in anticipation?She might get what she wanted, or his demons might rear their heads again.The stakes seemed higher than ever.
“Spook, I’m serious.I don’t give a damn about anything else.I just want you to fuck me.Right now, fuck me.”
“Tsk, bossy,” he chastened.He captured her wrists and drew them up above her head, holding them tight in one of his hands, while he used his free hand to guide himself into position.“Tell me again how much you want this.”
“God, Spook.So, so, much.”
“Yeah?”he huffed, mouth widening around a grin that showed off his teeth.“I want it too.”
“Really?”
“Really.”
He was poised right at the point of penetration, a place that made her tingle with anticipation and caused a rush of liquid need.Alle could see the sweat on his brow, feel the tremor of his nerves where his skin pressed against hers.His hold on her wrists loosened a fraction.
“Say please.Say please, Spook, make me all yours.”
“How about, if you don’t fuck me soon I’m going to bloody murder you?”
“Hm.”He smiled again, despite the sweat and tremors.“I guess that’ll do.Brace yourself, baby.There’ll only ever be one first time for us.”
If he upped the ante any more, she’d snap.
